Attenion.......

Well My mom hasn't been very talkative lately.. I've been needing to talk to someone about the things going on in my life.. With my bf leaving. And i said something to her today about her not being very talkative to me lately.. Well that totally set her off.. She got so mad. Its not always about you.. What about me? I have to do this and this and people expect me to do this for them and i have to worry about this. You expect people to just drop everything and listen to you when your having issues.. waht about me.. And then she started crying and said i gotta go and do this for this person bye thanks for making me cry..
Well i dont actually feel bad? Is that wrong? Im still mad that she wont listen to me.. I have no Fing friends to talk to that will understand and she brought me into this world she should have to listen to me! DAMNIT!

Good Lord. That was an overraction...what's going on in her life? Eeek..maybe she needs someone to listen too. Not saying you don't...but that was freakishly weird.

And the ironic thing is...her issues probably caused your issues. Sounds like she needs a therapist!

AMEN!!!!

HAHHAA you guys just made me seriuolsy LOL ya i would say she does.. lol She sent an apology email.. Said shes going through her own things.. And that she does want to heaer about me and my bf but shes got alot on her plate right now. I replied i didnt take it to heart.. i shouldve just kept it in like i thought i shouldve.
Its just shes the only one that has done any research on bpd and understands it a little so its easier to talkt o her about my relationship issues because alot of me is the bpd. anyone else wouldnt understand why im so needy and such...

I am glad she apologized to you. Just because we have bpd does not mean we deserve to be talked to like we are bad people.

We do all have our issues, though and often either ourselves or the others don't always have room for each others' issues at a given moment.

And when we have a limited support system, it's easy to talk to our "support" and it can hurt when that "support" gets upset with us. I am glad you have her to talk to.

Bruce is very understanding (my roommate) but he has his limits, too and I am learning to try to be there more for myself so that I don't have to lean on him so much. And it's great when he does have "room" for me.

BPD can be hard on the bpd and on the friend. But neither of us is "bad" or "good", just people with issues.

Billi