[nicoleb2]

I "graduate" from dbt on Monday. Yeah, I am glad to be done, but at the same time, I don't want my routine to change.
Starting the end of July, t wants me to go down to every other week appointments instead of once a week. I don't want this to change.
I won't be doing my diary card for dbt after next week because t want *me* to have to actually tell her what I need to talk about instead of her just reading my diary card and picking something. I really, really don't like this... I'm NOT good about actually bringing stuff up.

I should be able to handle this change, I've had many changes in my life, but I don't want things to change. I am really, really scared about the bringing up stuff I need to talk about. Writing it down and handing the paper to t is so much easier.

I rarely actually speak out about anything. I feel like crying right now, but I really can't even begin to let myself deal with emotions till after I get home from a girl scout trip on sunday....

[shortandcute]

i know--i have a hard time whit change

[Towanda]

Nicoleb, would your T compromise by letting you write stuff down and then read it to her? That way you're both kinda meeting each other half way. I do this with my T for the difficult issues - reading means I don't have to meet his eyes til I'm done saying the rough stuff, and that makes it easier getting it out in the open.