suddenly we gotta perform...

how long can ya be someone you aint?

[Trippin2.0]

Maybe that's why I stay close enough to be engaged, but not so close that they know me... Just realized my persona and the life I portray at my new job is quite untrue. Actually, it's honestly a load of BS. But I like those people, so it's a lose-lose situation. Might as well stick to the facade, I probly won't see them much if at all after this yr is up anyway. So I'm going to be someone I aint for 12hrs, 5days a week, for a year.

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Maybe that's why I stay close enough to be engaged, but not so close that they know me... Just realized my persona and the life I portray at my new job is quite untrue. Actually, it's honestly a load of BS. But I like those people, so it's a lose-lose situation. Might as well stick to the facade, I probly won't see them much if at all after this yr is up anyway. So I'm going to be someone I aint for 12hrs, 5days a week, for a year.

thanks for understanding so well......magic!

...how hard has it been to manage socially with no identity...?

we get unavoidably sucked up in other peoples SELVES!

we get absorbed and we gotta break outa there eventually...

and all they recall is us at our worst!..

did they ever figure how much effort we put in?

no they didn't and we are just borderline fools and off they go leaving us empty!

...there is a way out....there must be....I have survived so many years of pain and confusion....

we are incredible people....emotional misfits surrounded by angels

[Trippin2.0]

It's hard this identity facade, what makes it easier is that I keep the personality traits as close to home as I can. The lies are more about how i wish I was, what I wish to become, what is inside but I haven't learned to let out. I can never then really be me can I? I'm a contradiction personified, and no normi could ever grasp that.

[athena2011]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

It's hard this identity facade, what makes it easier is that I keep the personality traits as close to home as I can. The lies are more about how i wish I was, what I wish to become, what is inside but I haven't learned to let out. I can never then really be me can I? I'm a contradiction personified, and no normi could ever grasp that.

I find that it's a real dilemma. Do you exhaust yourself keeping up the facade? Then disappear whenever you can't maintain it? Or do you just warn people that sometimes the mask is going to have to come off and that they may not like what's underneath but that it just has to come off once in a while so you can breathe and recharge? I think everybody has a mask of some sort, maybe just not one quite so essential for survival. They might just understand on some level...

Oh...and HELLO Trippin and Monkey. Good to see you!

[Trippin2.0]

Hey athena! I retreat when the mask gets too heavy. And if it unravels infront of someone, I chalk it up to stress.