[Fleur**]

Hi,

I am new here. I've been diagnosed by a psychiatrist. I am currently living in supported temporary housing having had to leave my home due to receiving domestic abuse. Anyway, I think my behaviour may be slightly 'off', but I can't judge it objectively.

Up until about 2 or 3 weeks ago I was on 50 mg Setraline to help with Borderline symptoms- they helped a little, but made me very dopey and tired. 2 or 3 weeks ago, I mislaid my tablets for a couple of days and ended up deciding not to take the medication anymore. This didn't feel like a 'big' decision- it happened very casually. Furthermore, up until very recently, I had decided that I would be housed fairly near my home town, and told my support workers here of this intention. Literally, a few days ago, I tell them that I want to move to a totally different town- a town I like, but one which I've only visited a few times, and don't know anyone there. I don't have a clue why i told my support workers here this. They were v irritated, but agreed to apply for me to be housed there.
I now think that this sudden change of heart may be a sign of a Borderline relapse.My support workers know I have this disorder, and that I came off my medication, but because I can appear very self assured and competent, they don't question my decisions even when they really should. Also, over the last few weeks, I don't seem 'with it' somehow- I can't recall much of what has occurred, why I've made certain decisions, how I have spent my money etc. It's a bit of a blur. Am I setting myself up for a fall here? My support workers will go mad if I change my mind again, but I can't help it. They're not familiar with how the disorder works . Should I get a trusted family member to advocate to them on my behalf? Any help much appreciated. Thank you x