"Are you OK?"

Ever had this situation where you can keep a face on fine, until someone asks that question, or similar, and you end up breaking down in tears?

This has happened to me so many times in the past. If I feel horrible, I can act fine and happy, until someone asks me those words.

I'm kind of at that point right now.. granted, my grandma just died, but I am really hoping nobody asks me if i am ok.

I'm in a similar boat. I feel that I'm one comment away from a meltdown. I mean seriously. I already have a hard enough time with social situations, I live in a dysfunctional family setting that is hard to deal with. I'm currently unemployed and swear that I will never be able to hold another job. I'm waiting on the SSD decision sometime in the fall. I feel like no matter what I do I mess it up. My emotions are so high strung now, if the wrong comment is made to me I may just implode. Its not a good feeling. On top of all that, my depression has worsened to a point where I am sleeping sometimes 20 hrs per day. So hard to get out of bed. So hard to figure things out. I don't know what else to do anymore. My Pdoc has already said that the State Hospital is in my future if I go and get hospitalized again. I've been hospitalized 4 times this year alone and feel that maybe it's time for a cameo back at the local ER but I'm scared and alone and don't really know what to do anymore. Yes I know I rambled on and on but atleast people on PC care.

Thanks

I have.

My roommate commented on me "smiling" yesterday and I told him I actually felt like s*** and I almost started crying.

thanks,

B.

I can empathize with that. It seems to always happen at the most inappropriate times for me.. like at work. I'm trying so hard to keep it together.. and it takes just one caring person who can see through the ******** mask to break me down. I hate losing control