[greentires4me]

Pretty moments in time all suspend in the air
Memories flow through tears break the surface
Waterfalls of words
Thoughts dwindle down
It is like masterpiece theatre
Emotions flow out
A song comes on and dancers just move to it
As naturally as the motions flow through their bodies

Chocolate swirls around in the thoughts
Chocolate cake pure pleasure
Chocolate ice cream; fudge bar cold exterior
Chocolate peanut butter bar wafers crumble down
Cannot get enough chocolate into the system mouth salivates for more

Grieving the loss of grandparent that was close to its been 4 years but still miss them every single I want to make a phone call
It is like watching a dying plant replant its self again and again trying to grab a hold of life just little by little
Simply thrown back in force knocking to the ground getting up serenely pissed off
Pills in hand water in the other slam them back with no thought but feeling surreal
IVs, Bed pans, monitors, catheter, beeping sounds, oxygen
Silent suspicion that I went too far

Silent looks, dreary day outside
Emotions of sadness, abandonment, depressed, hurt, and shame
Talk with another, drudges up fear and psychotic reasoning
Gargoyles watch from the building they follow me from roof to roof

Where is the stoppage of time?
Where is the break from one drug to the next?
Where is my reality…as gargoyles chase me from building to building?

Outstanding pain, guilt, hurt, great sadness, paranoia and deep dark depression with psychotic moments of anger and aggression.
Puddles of emotions
Darkness clouds judgement
Falling off the sliding scale into the abyss of hallucinations and voices

Sanity is no longer recognized
Spidey sense tingles
Planning never cease one day it will be too late
Moments in time
Laura Skinner June 13/13