I sat down at my computer about two minutes ago to write a thread about a newspaper article that really affected me. It was about a Army psychologist who dealt with PTSD patients. He was considered a miracle worker with them but in the end succumbed to PTSD himself. He'd committed suicide. The last line made me cry. It said "He didn't want to die; he wanted to end the pain." I thought of myself in times I've felt that way as well as all of you and I wanted to share.

Before I could do anything, my phone rings. I was annoyed. It's my husband letting me know he's on his way home. He asked me if I was on the computer and I was honest and told him I was. He said, "I could tell. Your attitude always changes when you're on the computer." But I wasn't. I'd literally just sat down. I went in to an instant frenzy, said a few choice words and hung the phone on him...and now I'm sorry I did. So, count 'em, four distinct, strong emotions in less than two minutes. Gotta love BPD!

An edit....make it five...now I'm pissed again. He sent me a sarcastic text to top it off! Grr.....

[BeautifullyDeprived]

Hang on there, Mara! If it makes you feel about better, I agree with the flip flopping..my emotions can change from neutral to angry in a nanosecond! You are not alone in this. Putting myself in your shoes, if I had to read that article, I would probably cry! (I'm one of those who cry ALOT). That would automatically affect me as well!

Four or five sounds about right. My emotions change from feeling angry, to feeling intensely upset, to desperate, to depressed, and finally to feeling numb. Or something like that. I hope you feel better soon. Keep us updated on how you're doing.

I feel okay at the moment. It just always astounds me and totally confuses everyone else how fast I can go through a series of intense emotions sometimes. I'm glad that doesn't happen too too often. Probably three or four times a week though which is enough. And, of course, my husband will come in thinking I'm still mad and I'm way over that one, but he chooses not to get it and never will.

I go through this a lot. Its like a snowball for me. One emotion leads to another and another, find myself rolling down the hill very fast.

By the time he got home I was, of course, completely over it and somewhat glad to see him. He was still mad and accused me of "playing mind games", and of course, if I bring it up later after the pain subsides, he won't even remember saying it.