[Animatedd]

Never been diagnosed, but lurking on here and hearing how you all feel has touched me so close to home. I know deep down that I'm a good-hearted, kind person who deserves to be happy... yet, I am neglectful and I tend to subconsciously isolate people. I push them away and make them hate me. I just want ONE person, who'll look me in the eyes when I am feeling low and say to me; it's okay, I understand. No one does though! I love the way I think and I see myself as an intellectual, but it all comes at a cost and for as much as I think original, and creative... my relationships suffer.

It can be so incredibly lonely sometimes. I am nice to people and I empathize because I know what it's like to go through hell and back, but as much as I give I don't receive, because it's never enough for me and there's always doubt in me.

I sabotage myself.

22 years on this planet though, and I'm still here, so I know I am strong and am a fighter. Though I really need people who understand, cos the loneliness eats away at me from the inside.

[Travelinglady]

Welcome! I actually suggest you see a therapist, who can support you, too, and maybe come up with some diagnosis, if one is noted.

Meanwhile, the folks here at Psych Central can listen and give you advice about relationships, if you are interested.