[mraas72]

I pushed someone away that deserved to be pushed away a long time ago. I'm really hurt by it and I truly feel lonely and scared. I have no money, no medical, I live in a home I can't pay bills and right now I need help and I don't have my counselor that does my counseling pro-Bono. Life sucks! So I thought of coming here. Yesterday, I went onto a dating sight already. I being risky and I guess that is what being BP. Wow, I am so scared!

[Redsoft]

It sounds like things are really difficult right now, but good for you for a taking a stand for yourself and ridding yourself of negativity. We don't have a lot of control over negative things that happen to us sometimes, so when there is a negative situation that we can change, it's important to have the courage to do so, so good job.

[mraas72]

I appreciate it took me a long time and I am still having thoughts I might be wrong. I don't think I am wrong at all but those lonely thoughts and scared thoughts come on so strongly sometimes. I just sit here and cry. Thanks for your encouraging words.

[brokenwings79]

I feel your pain and understand how much being alone sucks. You should be proud that you let go of something unhealthy and did not let your fears stop you. Whenever a relationship ends for me I immediately become promiscuous and look for next man to fill my void. Stay strong....I know it is easier said than done but just know you are not alone!!