[Ultra Darkness]

I have a lot of bad traits, which my brother would be happy to tell you about. We fought again last night. He pointed out my resent "wrongdoings". I tried to leave. He bodyslammed me, then left himself. So I won that round.

But this isn't about him. This is my character analysis.

I am always honest, but I don't say anything I don't want to. I talk in circles, saying exactly what I mean, but with half a dozen possible translations. My brother hates this.

I hate angry arguments, but love reasoned debate. As long as I can keep my cool, I'll deliberately instigate something that challenges my views, just to have the satisfaction of not backing down. (I try to keep it civil on both sides, otherwise it's no fun. You have to play by the rules, whether you know them or not! )

My respect is hard to earn, and I don't care if others respect me. If I don't have my own respect, I don't deserve it from anyone else. (My view, probably spawned by my lack of respect for most everything.)

Abstracts are difficult for me to grasp (I'm still searching for the definition of "respect"). Once I understand it, however, I can weave a story around it until the concept seems lost... but it remains.

I believe that order lies within chaos, and that chaos is impossible without order. I believe that free-will is impossible without chaos, and that order exists only if we let it.

I'm near sighted and my hands always shake. But I see things perfectly in my mind that become reality through my art and stories. By the skill of my shaking hands.

My voice is quiet, and often cracks. I can't sing the tune. But because my emotions are unhidden, I don't need to.

I can't dance, but can move to the beat of the drums.

I can't always control my words. But my emotions are real.

I'm real. I'm not perfect, but I can accept who I am.

I'm Darkness. I reveal the stars.
I'm Chaos. I bring meaning to order.
I'm a Seeker. The Mysteries of the Universe are mine to unravel.

I'm a Pheonix.
And my time has come to rise from the ashes.


Rereading this, all I can think is, just what did I write?
Note to self. Find a computer. Copy this to the creative corner.

I so want to respond to this directly but... I'm sorry my brain exploded. but honestly it was a good read up to that point o.o