Lonely

Why the hell can't I get through a night without this crushing loneliness that I know isn't rational? I've already told everyone goodnight, because normal people are going to bed by now on a week night, and I just feel so cripplingly alone

Me too.

It hurts....

I'm really sorry.

I'm sorry you've got this too...

I wish I could say I feel better to know that I'm not alone in feeling alone....

But do two people feeling desperately alone really feel anything but combines aloneness?

I'm sorry you are both having a hard time with loneliness. I struggle with it daily. My wife works and I don't. Haven't in over a year. I wish things were different just about every day.

I understand that.. I socially isolate.. I always feel so alone, because even though I talk to a lot of people, I always feel like it's the shell I'm living in that's talking, and not actually me...

That's one of the things I wish were different. I just don't understand myself anymore. I've written over a thousand pages of two finished, yet unpublished, novels and I can't find the words to express how I'm feeling at this moment. It's so friggin' frustrating.

I understand that entirely... It's so hard, too, because when I get upset and don't have dance to go to, I usually end up writing some kick-*** poetry that is so full of emotion, and a lot of intensity, yet it never seems to come close to what I actually am feeling...

Hi sorry you feel alone I feel this when hubby goes out for the day. Saying that, even when he is here I can feel lonely....

I understand that... I was talking my dance teacher before she said goodnight, and I knew my 9:30 limit was coming, and I could feel myself getting lonely before she was even gone

My biggest fear, even before dying, is being alone, I mean completely alone. I fear deeply, as the years go on I will lose everyone and one day be completely alone. Worrying thing is I wont allow that to happen and may have to take matters into my own hands....death is more appealing to me than not having a single soul to talk to

Oh I know exactly what you mean, unfortunately... I'm absolutely terrified that I will be left alone to live with only myself, and I cannot find a point of living with just myself....

But we must get on with it I guess....I mean, nobody REALLY has to be alone, do they? Then I guess some ppl aren't able to go to social events to be around ppl. I for one am not good around new ppl, hell I struggle with the ppl I have known for yrs! I just hope I 'go' before everyone else around me does!

I go to social events to say I'm with people, but generally, I just sit there either in silence, or in such superficial conversation I may as well not be there at all... I am extremely shy around new people... I would much rather go to the people I have known forever....

Yeah I totally get that and man I HATE superficial conversation, it bores the hell out of me and would rather sit in silence ! Good for you for trying though. More than what I do! I am mostly just with hubby and my 2 pups. I would choose the company of my pups over most ppl I know tbh. I find they're more genuine! lol

That's why I stick around kids. You never have to worry about them being fake... I teach dance classes just because I love dance, and I love my kids... I have to be careful sometimes, because I'll automatically say "my girls" in outside conversation, and freak people out when I say I have 12.... 12 kids is intense.... Especially when I'm only 19.

LOL I used to babysit 5 boys when I was 16 and that was intense! They were ages, 2, 5, 8, 10 and 12 Little gits too! But I loved them too bits. Would babysit most weekends.

What kind of dance do you teach? The only dancing I've done is drunk on the club or pub floor. Those days are kinds behind me now! Now I just dance with my pups while cleaning the house If you can call it dancing haha

Lol my guess is people thought the youngest was yours?

I do ballet, tap, jazz, lyrical, etc.

Cool! I so wish I had got into dance when I was little/younger but I had social anxiety even back then so never did!

I started it as physical therapy when I was two... It was cheaper and longer... Then I just got hooked, and 17 years later, I'm still with it... and I get to help my kiddos find that love for it as well... I just love it

Response #1: Why isn't it rational?

Response #2: Feelings aren't rational. They just are. Nasty things (it's the "other" f-word).

It's not rational to me to not be able to get through an evening alone without feeling completely consumed by loneliness... I understand feeling lonely when you're alone, that is completely rational... I just feel like some nights it just crushes me to bits...

Feelings suck.

Thanks

I feel like Stephen Fry in that, "I dont want to be alone, but i want to be left alone."

Only The Lonely « The New Adventures of Stephen Fry

I hope you find an answer.

I understand exactly what he means about feeling alone in a crowd of people, and seemingly a good dinner guest, but then going home to be lonely again... But I don't want people to leave me alone. I would much rather have everyone asking than no one. But that is just me.