5 Reasons

Sep 19, 2013, 12:18 PM

1. Because it never changes.
2. Because even if it were different you'll do everything you can do fark it up
3. Because whatever good you think of it, is probably all in your head
4. Because whatever you percieve. it's wrong
5. Because you're fckwit.

allme · Sep 19, 2013, 12:27 PM

Oh no

Pls don't feel so negative about yourself!

1. Of course things can change
2. You don't know you would - You are not a psychic
3. You again don't know this
4. You can't ALWAYS be wrong!
5. Nooooo you're so far from one!

Take it easy on yourself and quit beating yourself up!

UnderTheRose · Sep 19, 2013, 12:44 PM

#4 should negate everything else haha *smiles* - kidding
and #3 --- that can be switched around can't it? eg. Because whatever BAD you think of it, is probably all in your head

Luvmydog · Sep 19, 2013, 12:56 PM

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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

1. Because it never changes.

It always changes, and for me that's the problem. Nothing in life is static.

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2. Because even if it were different you'll do everything you can do fark it up

Nice Battlestar Galactica reference, but I don't think it's everything you can to fark it up. Sometimes it takes patience, especially with ourselves.

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3. Because whatever good you think of it, is probably all in your head

This is true for either good or bad. Black/White thinking, either,or. Nothing is either all good or bad. Allow in the gray (& I don't mean fifty shades of it, just a little).

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4. Because whatever you percieve. it's wrong

How can you be wrong all the time? I would point out that this is a perception, too, but about yourself.

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5. Because you're fckwit.

I don't think I even need to answer this numbered untruth. It is hard to take chances, especially when the outcome is iffy. You are a good man, S4, remember your tattoo. 7 times down, 8 times up. Let it be a visual reminder. Take care of yourself, and remember, many of us care about you too.

Sep 19, 2013, 01:10 PM

Thanks for trying everyone. AT the moment no amount of logic or rational thinking will touch me. The monster has awoken >.<

Luvmydog · Sep 19, 2013, 01:20 PM

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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

Thanks for trying everyone. AT the moment no amount of logic or rational thinking will touch me. The monster has awoken >.<

I'm sorry that you feel like this. I go through times like this too. Here for you, and hope it gets better soon.

Sep 19, 2013, 01:26 PM

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Originally Posted by Luvmydog

I'm sorry that you feel like this. I go through times like this too. Here for you, and hope it gets better soon.

thanks. in spite of myself, I do appreciate that.

As sure as Hyde always returns to being Jekyll, I will return to normal eventually.

Sep 19, 2013, 01:37 PM

This has all been a rant, I know. Some have probably viewed this and just passed on even replying. that's fine. Just think of this as a person "virtually" going outside to scream for a minute. Nothing to do about it, nothing to fix. It is what it is.

Fact is I get angry at the world. At existence, at the universe sometimes. There is no logic to it, there is no reason or rhyme to it. It is just the way it is. I am this monster I temporarily become.

Funny thing in the midst of it, I am acting irrationally and angry at everything, saying things that even at that moment I know are either stupid, illogical or just plain foolhardy but it's like a part of me just says screw you. It's like a part of me wanting to do the opposite, think the opposite and say the opposite of what really is true even in my own mind. I guess what's weird is that I've always thuoght that people became irrational in their rage. I act irrationally but somehow there's always a tiny voice in me saying "you liar, you know this is bullsht" So maybe I'm just a faker? meh. no... I don't think so but it is a curious thing.

sorry for my rant.

Sep 19, 2013, 01:59 PM

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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

This has all been a rant, I know. Some have probably viewed this and just passed on even replying. that's fine. Just think of this as a person "virtually" going outside to scream for a minute. Nothing to do about it, nothing to fix. It is what it is.

Fact is I get angry at the world. At existence, at the universe sometimes. There is no logic to it, there is no reason or rhyme to it. It is just the way it is. I am this monster I temporarily become.

Funny thing in the midst of it, I am acting irrationally and angry at everything, saying things that even at that moment I know are either stupid, illogical or just plain foolhardy but it's like a part of me just says screw you. It's like a part of me wanting to do the opposite, think the opposite and say the opposite of what really is true even in my own mind. I guess what's weird is that I've always thuoght that people became irrational in their rage. I act irrationally but somehow there's always a tiny voice in me saying "you liar, you know this is bullsht" So maybe I'm just a faker? meh. no... I don't think so but it is a curious thing.

sorry for my rant.

I do the exact same thing! It doesn't make you a faker, it shows that there is part of you that does think rationally. You just need to listen to that part more and accept it. Hard I know, but I'm pretty sure you can achieve that with time

And you are not a monster

Sep 19, 2013, 02:18 PM

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Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I do the exact same thing! It doesn't make you a faker, it shows that there is part of you that does think rationally. You just need to listen to that part more and accept it. Hard I know, but I'm pretty sure you can achieve that with time

And you are not a monster

hehe thank you. well the monster lives in me tho'

he takes over sometimes and it sure feels like me o.O

it's not that I don't listen to it, it's that I refuse to obey it. The rational mind, I mean.

Luvmydog · Sep 19, 2013, 02:22 PM

If I were a monster I would either wanna be Count Chocula, or some sort of dragon.

Sep 19, 2013, 02:28 PM

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If I were a monster I would either wanna be Count Chocula, or some sort of dragon.

Franken-Berry is cooler :P

Sep 19, 2013, 02:29 PM

tantrum ended btw.

UnderTheRose · Sep 19, 2013, 07:56 PM

I think it's great that a place like this exists for times when we need to rant.
Thanks for just being real.

TheRealFDeal · Sep 19, 2013, 11:12 PM

This list really resonates with me. Especially #4... and #5.... no, wait, the opposite of #3. No, no, idk. I'm probably just perceiving it wrong.

GeorgiaGirl413 · Sep 20, 2013, 08:31 AM

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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

1. Because it never changes.
2. Because even if it were different you'll do everything you can do fark it up
3. Because whatever good you think of it, is probably all in your head
4. Because whatever you percieve. it's wrong
5. Because you're fckwit.

Yep. Except #5. I'm a fckwitette.

GeorgiaGirl413 · Sep 20, 2013, 08:34 AM

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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

Thanks for trying everyone. AT the moment no amount of logic or rational thinking will touch me. The monster has awoken >.<

I know that feeling. You get into "yes, but" mode. Just hang in there my friend. Know that we are getting better day by day just because we can recognize these things in ourselves.