[bumble2u]

I am not sure where to put this. At the minute it feels like cold fingers are probing my entire body. Little claws into my shoulder blades pulling at every hair in my scalp. And the constant reminder that "you are nothing". You are disgusting. Nobody cares what happens to you. So my decisions are are easy about myself. Paralysed to fight. I am so sad but it won't come out, all my past stuck in my throat and all my future never to be evoked. I am on the edge. Right now nearly falling off and very little caring. I have no one to really speak to. my psych is French and doesn't get my inference. I am working minute by minute to remain safe. I really don't know how long I can do this.

[gayleggg]

Can you call your doctor? Or go to the closest ER. You need to get help now. If you have to call 911.

[Fuzzybear]

[GeorgiaGirl413]

So sorry you are feeling this way. If you are not in a safe place then get there. As many of us with BPD know this feeling will likely pass. We are here for you in the meantime.

[poptart316]

I too often feel as if no one cares about me. Don't worry about coming off as miserable on here, these forums are here to help you (us) cope. I hope you feel better soon.

[thepoetishere]

I care what happens to you. Please stay safe. It'll soon pass.

[IGotThis]

I care as well... Please stay safe. If you can't keep fighting it, find someone who can help you.

[wiltedxdaisy]

People do care.. I know that your mind is telling you no one does and that you are nothing, but those are lies... your mind is disordered. Try to work on thinking logically, give yourself examples of times when people have cared (for instance: everyone who has replied to this post, and lots more who might be too scared to post right now!) Also, can you get a different psych? If you are not able to communicate well with your psych, then there isn't really any point in continuing seeing him or her. Ask to see someone else. You deserve to get the care and treatment you deserve. Also, as said before me, if you are feeling unsafe, please go to the ER.

[duende]

I see that you've gotten some good advice from some caring people here. Please know that there are people who care about what happens. Post. Seek the help and care that you deserve. Take good care, you deserve it

DO NOT GIVE UP!! I have felt like you so many times. I thought of giving up so many times. Especially when it seems like no one really cares about you. I have felt like I don't really matter. I have felt like I don't count. I too, have felt like I am nothing. To be honest, I have those feelings more often than I care to admit but, I have to believe that I can make a difference to someone in this world, no matter how cruel people are to me. I really have no support. No one wants to hear me talk about things that bother me. Hell, no one really wants to hear me at all. It's a shame that I have to pay a therapist to talk to about how family and friends treat you like crap when you do everything for them. I listen to everyone else complain and complain about THEIR stuff but no one can listen to me complain about anything that bothers me.Sad to say that ,even though I like the therapist as a person, she hasn't really helped me in any way. No suggestions as to how to possibly deal with situations but at least I can vent to someone, as long as I pay them to listen. Moral of my short story is, ignorant a-holes make caring people like us feel like we are worthless and we know it's not true. You do have a purpose in life so please be strong. If you need help, please call a doctor for emergency intervention. You are valuable. You do matter. You are worth it.

This is how I was up until even a few days ago. It lasted for ages and I didn't see a way out, other than suicide. Luckily, somehow, with the help of everyone here I fought it. And believe it or not I can see some light again. I feel almost human again. It might not last, but I have a bit of hope again. Hang in there, keep talking to us here, this place kept me going