I hate this feeling. I hate the terrible lows. Why am I just constantly suicidal? Why am I sitting here at work thinking about what needs to get done urgently so that no one will be left in the lurch if I'm not in anymore. I can't even concentrate on the job so how I can get anything done I have no idea...

I wish this would all just go away

I don't know how long I can keep putting it off for

[TheRealFDeal]

Wow, you just described me. I am actually on medical leave from work right now. Before that, I was trying to get stuff done and cc'ing my supervisor on everything so she would know the status of everything because I felt suicidal. I hope it's helping her now. When I get back to work, I'm going to feel SO guilty for every single task she completed on my behalf. I am already planning what I need to get done when I get back to work so that someone else won't have to do it, cuz how long will I last?

I could give a **** about my personal affairs; my family can figure it out when I'm gone.

It really does suck. I had time off at the start of the year which is the busiest time at work for me. I felt so guilty then too. I just wish I didn't have a conscience and then I'd be gone probably.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

I feel your pain as I am in that same place right now. In fact, I have no business being here when I have so much other that needs to get done. I have been this way for about 2 weeks now. I simply cannot get motivated. Thoughts of suicide are my constant companion. Not that I intend to act on them now, but just knowing that if things get too awful I can. Wish we could all just get together for one great big group hug. Sometimes the worst part is that you can't tell anyone. Hugs to both of you.

[atomicc]

I am also the same way right now. It is constantly on my mind and my emotions hurt so bad. Hang in there, secret. We're all here to help each other

[technigal]

I am off work now. I work in accounting. There is no way I should be dealing with large amounts of money when I am unsure of my name...

[allme]

I know it's awful. I am also in a bad place...think it's down to the change in weather and the darker days this time. Well it's not helping anyway.

Wish I could say or do something to make you feel better

Originally Posted by GeorgiaGirl413

I feel your pain as I am in that same place right now. In fact, I have no business being here when I have so much other that needs to get done. I have been this way for about 2 weeks now. I simply cannot get motivated. Thoughts of suicide are my constant companion. Not that I intend to act on them now, but just knowing that if things get too awful I can. Wish we could all just get together for one great big group hug. Sometimes the worst part is that you can't tell anyone. Hugs to both of you.

One great big group hug would be awesome! Hope you're feeling better soon

Originally Posted by technigal

I am off work now. I work in accounting. There is no way I should be dealing with large amounts of money when I am unsure of my name...

I do accounting too so i know what you mean there...!

Originally Posted by allme

I know it's awful. I am also in a bad place...think it's down to the change in weather and the darker days this time. Well it's not helping anyway.

Wish I could say or do something to make you feel better

Just knowing you're there is enough