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Oct 25, 2013, 10:26 AM
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So....I have undergone yet another change in my "vocational aspiration." I spent more than the last year working on prerequisites for nursing and doing absolutely everything from getting references to applying twice and finally got into nursing school. After 6 weeks I did the usual BPD thing and withdrew from the program and left. I wanted to be a nurse SOOOOOOOO bad and suddenly as I am finally in it I wanted nothing more than to quit. Well, I work in a hospital now as a dietary aide and absolutely everyone (from nurses to aides to housekeeping) knew I was going into nursing and already at least 10 people have been stunned and asked why I quit. WHAT do I tell them without saying "well, I have BPD and we do this kind of things all the time." There were things making it very difficult to stay...my mom died this summer and my dad lives alone (he's my neighbor) and I am a single mom with no money and I hated getting in debt, blah, blah, blah. I feel like an idiot and am so embarrassed I quit. It is really hard to get into nursing school and people cannot imagine why I would quit. UGH! This happens to me all the time. A couple of years ago I wanted to be a teacher (my best friend is a teacher) and before that I wanted to be a counselor...so I got my degree in psychology...and then I got this job at a hospital 3 years ago and just HAD to be a nurse. Sorry for the rant and the craziness, but sometimes BPD behavior is SO freakin' embarrassing. I can't tell people "well, I have BPD and do this kind of stuff, haha." I don't know what the heck I want. I'm middle-aged and have a son with autism and a teen who is "normal."
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Oct 25, 2013, 12:15 PM
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Hi
 Well I would just say 'I had a change of heart', smile and walk away! There is no need to go into any details - it's none of their business anyway. Try not to get hung up about what ppl think, what matters is what you think and what you want to do.
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Oct 25, 2013, 01:05 PM
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I have blamed my mom's death on a lot of things and she has been gone a year. It is a legitimate excuse for you as people understand that dealing with death can be very difficult.
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Mags Depression diagnosed March 1996 PTSD diagnosed January 2000 BPD diagnosed September 2013 |
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Oct 25, 2013, 02:20 PM
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