[Britneigh]

I rarely am on anymore because I don't have a phone or internet or anything. My life is completely spiraling out of control. My girlfriend and I got in an argument and are no longer together and I lost it. I felt like I had nothing to live for, nothing to hold on to. I cut really bad and have 29 stitches between both arms. My girlfriend isn't allowed back in our apartment because her parents are afraid I would hurt her. I'd never ever do that though But we are still friends, really struggling to get through this, we've never spent a day apart since last September. I've decided to go into impatient (when I went to the hospital for the stitches, they let me go, I swear you can talk them out of everything) and try and sort out my issues, but I'm terrified. I have to give up my job, find a home for my horse, hopefully a dog sitter for my dog (if not I have to give her away), find a home for our six cats, and clean the apartment up. Its a lot of change at once and it just sucks.

I don't know what to expect when I go inpatient, what happens? How long are you usually there? I just am scared....and help or suggestions would be great...I'm lost and feeling lonely.

[wiltedxdaisy]

I'm so sorry to hear about what all you are going through. I think it's great that you are willing to go to inpatient to help yourself. Inpatient can be scary at first, but once you get to know everyone and know your way around, it get's easier. Try to go in with a positive attitude about wanting to get better. It helps a lot. As for what to expect, generally there is group therapy (usually a lot of different groups through the day). You may also see an individual therapist or social worker. You will probably meet with a treatment team, including a psychiatrist so they can evaluate you and figure out how best to help you and how long you will need to stay. They may put you on or adjust your meds if you are on any. The longest I have had to stay was two weeks. I've been in inpatient I think 8 times now. I would recommend bringing some books or magazines or something to help keep you busy during the off times (like when no groups, or anything) because sometimes it can be pretty boring in there. I also like to bring a comfort item (like a teddy bear) to cuddle with at night. There are nurses around all the time, and if you need to talk to them, you can. You may have your own room or you might have a roommate. I have been to a few different hospitals and a lot of things can very, but hopefully some of this will help you to prepare.

Wishing you all the best!
~Angel

[nycgal448]

I wuz inpatient 9 x in/ out since i wuz 15. It's exactly what she said... sums
it all up, however do not Fake ur feelings and lie to get out, c.uz ur only
hurting urself and u will end up back there. Good Luck. I hope things get
better for u . I am a cutter too... I feel ur pain