[BuckNut1]

I do not think I ever truly feel happy.

I live in a world of twisted logic, fear, and paranoia.

I think I may have moments of happiness, but they are few and far between.

Does anyone else have this experience?

Do you ever feel happy? If so, when? And why?

Then what takes the feeling away again?

Thank you,

B

[learningtolive2013]

Happiness to me is an illusion.. I think euphoria is happiness, I'm either euphoric or completely down in the dumps. I wish I could maintain a level of "comfort" and peace without it being one extreme or the other to just feel "good".. My "happy" days are few and my depressed days are many... I don't think I even know what happiness really feels like.

[technigal]

These days I forget what happy feels like. Depression is not getting worse but still there.

[Little Miss Death]

no never happy

Yeah I'm pretty much in the same boat as you. My world is a very screwed up one.
I experience short-term happiness, but nothing that lasts. The best I can hope for if the help I'm getting doesn't work is to follow in the footsteps of some I've known and detach completely from everyone/everything.

[BuckNut1]

What do you think the difference is between euphoria and happiness?

I do feel what I would call "giddy" sometimes.... generally the initial phases of a new intimate relationship.

[BuckNut1]

I'm thinking no one here is happy.. just like me.

[learningtolive2013]

Originally Posted by BuckNut1

What do you think the difference is between euphoria and happiness?

I do feel what I would call "giddy" sometimes.... generally the initial phases of a new intimate relationship.

I am the same "giddy" like initial phases of a new intimate relationship.. THAT is my extreme expectation of "happiness".. The difference between THAT euphoric feeling and actual true happiness? I think I don't know right now.. But the real "happiness" is probably less fun than euphoria "which sucks" lol

[learningtolive2013]

I think I have an unrealistic expectation of what happiness is. Which sucks.. I guess I have to lower my standards and find happiness somewhere between the euphoria and the depression and find peace within that and call it happiness? lol

[hawaii04]

Euphoric, giddy, yes . . . happy ~ shoot I'd settle for content . . . that is alien to me. And on the other side is anger, depression, anxiety. I so wish I could look at this array as making me a well-rounded individual.

[steelfang]

Yeah I do most of the time. I am naturally a cheerful person and I have an understanding support system, family and friends.

However when I am depressed I tend to get very cynical and negative. I also had a rough childhood full of abuse and felt very misunderstood in my teen years. I only started treatment a year ago and it was magical for me. Overall I feel life is worth living. You just never know what is going to happen next!

Hang in there you guys!

[Angel of Bedlam]

Not often at all- at least not all of me. Even when I'm happy about something there's another part that's on guard waiting for something to go wrong and someone to hurt me.

[Aventurine]

Sometimes when I feel happy, I feel like I am lying to myself. Its a really twisted way to think, I know..

[beloiseau]

Yes, moments of happiness but I can quickly remind myself why I'm not happy. I don't know if this is my depression or BPD. I have felt this way as long as I can remember, even as a kid.

[hawaii04]

Originally Posted by beloiseau

Yes, moments of happiness but I can quickly remind myself why I'm not happy. I don't know if this is my depression or BPD. I have felt this way as long as I can remember, even as a kid.

I wonder the same thing, depression or BPD. When I'm having a somewhat happy moment and catch it, my heart sinks with almost a sick feeling realizing that it is but a fleeting thing.

[Angel of Bedlam]

Originally Posted by hawaii04

I wonder the same thing, depression or BPD. When I'm having a somewhat happy moment and catch it, my heart sinks with almost a sick feeling realizing that it is but a fleeting thing.

I don't ever get caught in a thought process of thinking is fleeting, for me, I more get caught in feeling like someone or something is going to take it away from me.