I am so pissed off. I hate my bf. No exageration. I wish I had nothing to do with him ever again. I'd rather die. I'm so ****ing angry right now. I don't want to forgive, he doesn't deserve it. I feel like just moving out come morning. I'd rather be single.

[Espresso]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I definitely understand what you're feeling because I've been there many times too.

[Elektra_]

u are able to do whatever u feel is right choice just make the decision only after u calm down. may i ask what did he do?

[technigal]

I am sorry you are having such a rough time. Elektra is right that you should not make a decision until you calm down. At that point you need to do whatever is best for you.

He was just a drunken idiot that by the sounds of it is currently throwing up in bed...(I went for the spare room tonight thank god). He got me mad because he'd been drinking a lot and although we'd gone out together he just left me to sit alone while he talked to the others at the bar. Kept buying more and more drinks. He didn't even notice when I went passed and left. He phoned me eventually wondering where I was, trying to get me to go back. By then I was in bed.

I feel calmer now, I guess I overreacted but I'm still unsure of what to do.

On a side note, I'm not sure that I love him anymore so maybe I'm just looking for excuses to end it with him....

[Elektra_]

ur right to be angry. i dont like that of behavior either. and it was wrong of him to take u out and then forget about u. to no being sure if u love him, i dunno what o tell u... good luck

[SaraSkyblue]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I am so pissed off. I hate my bf. No exageration. I wish I had nothing to do with him ever again. I'd rather die. I'm so ****ing angry right now. I don't want to forgive, he doesn't deserve it. I feel like just moving out come morning. I'd rather be single.

When I feel this way I do my best to sit down (I usually end up posting on here to get the bad feelings off my chest) and think for a minute. Due to my BPD I'm SOOOO insanely impulsive that if it wasn't for the simple exercises I do when I'm hurt or upset I would always be running away and cutting contact with people. Just the other day I was so upset I wanted to move to a different state and never speak to anyone. Ohhhh was I PISSED. But I sat with the feelings for a while and thought about it. I KNEW it was all just impulse, but the urge gets so strong. After thinking for a while the mood and desire for impulse usually passes. If it hasn't, I think about several things I could do about the situation. I think long and hard. Sometimes I still end up doing the wrong thing, but most of the time I come up with a better solution. I'm sorry you feel this way. It's a bad feeling to be sooo angry. I hope things get better.