[complex21]

i realized that I depend on affection and love to make me feel worthy to be alive. I know that is dangerous and unhealthy but it keeps me alive. Does anyone else do this?

[technigal]

Yes. I have zero self worth. I have been with my husband now for 13 years but before meeting him I bounced around from guy to guy wanting affection so I could feel like I was somebody.

[Angel of Bedlam]

Originally Posted by complex21

i realized that I depend on affection and love to make me feel worthy to be alive. I know that is dangerous and unhealthy but it keeps me alive. Does anyone else do this?

I am exactly this way. Self-worth? I have no idea what that concept even is. I have to feel desired, loved, needed, and wanted in order for me to feel any sort of value for me.

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[hawaii04]

I am love dependent . . . completely. Without a consistent flow of it, I either shut down and want to curl up in a ball or I get very angry and lash out. Deprivation of it, or so it feels makes me feel like nothing.

[Espresso]

Yes, yes, yes. What everyone said describes me almost exactly. I get my self worth through my husband. And when he's angry at me, I feel miserable to the point of wanting to kill myself.

[beloiseau]

Yes. I tried to define myself by so many things before I realized that it was actually me that needed some work. I tried through friends, my family, work, boyfriends. Once something goes wrong in some external factor I use to define myself, I feel like I'm falling apart. I require some sort of attention and constant reassuring that I am OK to be around, or else my self-criticism and judgmental thoughts really get to me.