[UnderTheRose]

So the past month has been really hard for me. I feel disconnected, but connected enough to still cry about feeling like a failure. I deleted my FB account, have stopped answering the phone and basically am in a full out depression.
This would please my psych, who has been pushing me toward accepting a BiPolar 2 diagnosis. I've never experienced mania, unless impulsive bad choices could be called mania... then again that could be part of being BPD..
Its so frustrating.
I can't read anymore. My attention was bad before but since my internet addiction has taken hold, its even worse.
I cant complete any tasks....
Psych says this is due to BiPolar2 and a dysphoric state.
Family Doctor still says ADD and BPD...
And I think.. HELL, maybe im just freaking depressed!!!?
Anyhow so I came across an article at link.springer and pub.med and basically it says :
"ADHD in childhood has been reported to be highly associated with the diagnosis of BPD in adulthood [...] respectively, in BPD and adult ADHD as well as neuroimaging and psychopharmacological studies showed some evidence for a potential common neurobiological dysfunction suggesting the hypothesis that ADHD and BPD may not be two distinct disorders, but represent at least in a subgroup of patients two dimensions of one disorder."

I thought THAT was pretty interesting. To me I always felt that BPD was kind of like grown up ADD, lol...
Anyhow, just needed to ramble. No one I know knows about any of this stuff and my husband and I no longer talk. I actually handed him a note today asking him to take the kids to the park after lunch-- couldnt find the words to speak to him because he blew up at me the other day over something and now i'm crushed and feel like crap and can't find the words to say anything other than "Dinner's ready" and "how was work?"

[The_little_didgee]

Originally Posted by UnderTheRose

This would please my psych, who has been pushing me toward accepting a BiPolar 2 diagnosis. I've never experienced mania, unless impulsive bad choices could be called mania... then again that could be part of being BPD..
Its so frustrating.
I can't read anymore. My attention was bad before but since my internet addiction has taken hold, its even worse.
I cant complete any tasks....
Psych says this is due to BiPolar2 and a dysphoric state.
Family Doctor still says ADD and BPD...
And I think.. HELL, maybe im just freaking depressed!!!?
Anyhow so I came across an article at link.springer and pub.med and basically it says :
"ADHD in childhood has been reported to be highly associated with the diagnosis of BPD in adulthood [...] respectively, in BPD and adult ADHD as well as neuroimaging and psychopharmacological studies showed some evidence for a potential common neurobiological dysfunction suggesting the hypothesis that ADHD and BPD may not be two distinct disorders, but represent at least in a subgroup of patients two dimensions of one disorder."

BPD symptoms have an interpersonal explanation. Bipolar I & II tends to occur spontaneously but can be triggered by intra and interpersonal stress.

I read a few papers on ADHD and BPD. The connection makes sense. It makes me wonder if BPD is actually really a description of a coping style.

Some professionals believe BPD is on the bipolar spectrum.

[UnderTheRose]

Originally Posted by The_little_didgee

The connection makes sense. It makes me wonder if BPD is actually really a description of a coping style.

Yes, I've thought that too, but hadn't quite found those words to describe it. It makes alot of sense though. My only thought was... I thought these things get better, adhd especially.
Maybe just all the time I spend overloading my brain with the internet blows those symptoms up to become even larger. I remember that at least I used to be able to read. And I read well, addictively even.

[waggiedog]

Hi there. I'm BPD alone (??) Thought that was well enough! Have been following your conversation - interesting, very interesting thankyou. Nothing to add at the moment. HUGZZ. x