[DLR7885]

After much anger, depression, self-injury and making plans to leave home (wife and 2 kids) and attempt suicide again, I have come to the realization that I don't have any answers to all the things that drive me to these desperate "solutions" and all the things I think were answers are not. So now I am left without answers or direction, only the realizations that either there are no answers or a positive alternative is an answer, and that from where I am emotionally, there is no way to go but up.

Any similar experiences or thoughts on this?

[shezbut]

Yes.

I have similar thoughts. I wish that I could find the answers to help myself get up already. I have been working at making myself "healthy" for too damn long and it's pissing me off!! I still have nothing to show for all of my hard work.

I know why I am "this way", but that doesn't help me get over it. I've worked SO hard, almost 3 decades, and I still go through these freaking self-hate periods, misery, and anger. I have nothing inside. No better understanding of what I want or need from life to keep me here.

It is maddening!!
Sorry ~ this is a real crappy time for me. I'm just feeling hopeless.... Again...

[JadeAmethyst]

Same here, it is darn infuriating to know the truth and facts, work hard and dilegently to be a decent human being. I know each day that it takes effortputting one foot in front of the other....
Ifeel deepest compassion for all who suffer everyday, i hope to extend the same for ourselvesin these moments.

Hanging right along with you
Jade