[Une Pair]

Hello Everyone..

Thanks for reading this and thanks for all the forum moderators and care providers who are creating such a great community.

I've been living with BPD and ADHD for all my adult life. I'm now 35 and I think I have had it.

I can no longer cope with my self nor society. I feel disabled and I have to do something about it..

I'm in no position to acquire any professional help, neither logistically nor financially possible to enroll at any clinic or program.

My resolution so far is to seek meditation and mindfulness as my only option to create a life worth living.

I've decided to embark on a 6 months retreat where I will go into intensive meditation while observing noble silence. I'm not renouncing life. But I really feel the need to disconnect and "reset".

I've been meditating on and off for some time now and I think I'm up for such a challenge.

What do you think? Have you tried something like this before? How did it work out for you? What about professionals, would you recommend such endeavor?

My only worry is that I might be distancing myself more. Well my social muscle is almost non existent anyways but then that would be it for me?!

My second part of the inquiry is about recommendations for available retreats. Unfortunately, I won't be able to go to any of the expensive monasteries so I'm looking for advice re the most affordable and lowest budget options. Currently I'm looking into Nepal and Sri Lanka but need to pin point some viable locations.

Wish you well.
Haytham

[kaliope]

hi
mindfulness is a great option for the treatment of bpd. rather than invest in a meditation retreat to get away from everybody, why not look into DBT which uses mindfulness to treat bpd. it gives you the skills to deal with emotional regulation. it really is quite successful. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[Une Pair]

Thanks a lot Kali.

I've read quite a bit about DBT and is familiar with Dr. Marsha Linehan's amazing research and pioneering research on the subject among many others. But it seems like I'm an able to create a self supervised and maintained treatment structure. Also, I haven't come across such a thing anywhere. Self administrated treatment manual for BPD using DBT?! I never found such a thing. I'm hoping to come up with such an experience after my retreat. Like I said enrolling in any treatment program is just not feasible. It might have made things easier for me but it's just not there. Maybe for the better, who knows!

Thanks again