[henrydavidtherobot]

For me, emptiness feels like a physical manifestation in my body that I could describe at times as heaviness (in the lower gut and groin), numbness, or separateness (think of Plath's bell jar). I'm written poems and stories about it. The heaviness is the most common.

As I've aged, it comes less and I am happier. I've been free of the empty feelings for a long time and was excited because I hoped to knock the symptom off of my diagnosis, which means that I am closer to recovery.

However, it's back. My relationship left me and won't talk to me, the people who I thought would be sad to see me go aren't, and my coworkers at my professional job all despise me. I feel hopeless about finding love in the world.

I'm not as hopeless as before and honestly do feel loved by some people, but the physical manifestation of the heaviness makes me feel that I will always be unlovable by the world at large.

When I cry, I feel like I am looking down from the ceiling and want to be another person to hug that girl.

[Travelinglady]

((((henrydavidtherobot)))) I hope you are feeling better now.

[waggiedog]

Hello there and good evening. I'm soooooooooooo sorry to hear that you are feeling all of these negative sad feelings BUT, I know them only too well. I am also a sufferer of the dreaded BPD and all of it's nasty symptoms, I've suffered for the last 30 plus years and it's been a complete and utter nightmare for myself and my family. I understand what it feels like to have that numbness which comes from right down at the base of your stomach or groin. The emptiness and the strange feelings of looking down on yourself from above as if you were someone else. Please do come here to share, for there are many of us with some/all of the disorders you have. PC is such a good place to be, friends will support you as and when you are in need. HUGS.

[gayleggg]

I, too, hope you feel better now. Sorry I missed your post and did not respond earlier. Keep your head up love can turn up anywhere.

[Kimaya]

I feel your pain... I would come down and hug that girl. I just came out of an episode recently, myself. Do you have any pets? (feels lame for asking, but my pet helps me so much during these times)

cue the music.... "hello darkness my old friend......"