[Mustkeepjob32]

What makes a 36 y/o male cry at the drop of a hat? Desperate emotions. I've been crying almost everyday and running out of Seroquel to get me out of the mess.
When I cry my Dad gets horribly upset and says horrible and mean things to me. Yesterday I hit my head over and over again in front of my parents. I am so desperate. My pdoc is in Mexico and until I get back there, she can't really help me.
I'm supposed to start a job on Monday in CA and while I was thinking there was no way I could do it, I now want to go. I think it will be good for me to get out of my parents' house. I think I overstayed my visit. I just have to be sure I'm going to do the job, otherwise I'll fail and feel more miserable.
I wish I was a stronger person so much. It's painful to have these emotions that take me over and make me cry so loud and forcefully. I can't hold the tears in that's all, I wish my parents understood that.
Thanks for reading guys.

[technigal]

Is the job something you want to do? It may be good for you to leave your parents' house, sometimes the people who are supposed to be supportive bring you down even further. I do know what it is like to move a big distance and not have a support system, it is hard but it is possible.

I think there is something in the air as I have been crying constantly for days.