[borncatastrophe77]

So, i have an important question for you all. I have i major issues with recalling memories of certain topics in my life. The difficulty with these memories is usually triggered after i get into an argument about these things. Our after i get questioned about them and am told about my self because of them.

I want to make myself clear so there is no misunderstanding. I'm really looking for help on this. So it's like this. I think that once i do some thing that is embarrassing or shameful and then i get questioned about it or yelled at about it or really ashamed about it i then start to space myself from that topic, instance or act and my memory of it gets horrible. Horrible to the point of people who are close to me feel I'm a total liar.
My take on things is this:
I know I've lied about things but i guess the victim mentality in me says that i felt pressured to lie because the person's reaction would have been some thing i couldn't handle. Other times i feel like I'm trying to answer truthfully but i just lock up. Like my mind goes blank And I'm over taken by anxiety.
Other times it's a question that i damn sure should know the answer to because it's me and my life but i just won't know.
It really is crazy and I'm so stuck. I feel so crazy and Adobe. And unsafe.
I'm looking into ways to help me better get these answers and memories.
Can any one lend some help on this please.

[CANDC]

Borncat, these are stress related. Here are articles that show how emotions affect memory
Psych Central - Search results for Stopping self injury