[Fuzzybear]

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Oh whatever. I so much hate gossip... If I confide in anyone IRL so often they don't understand, and I still haven't learnt? Trust NO ONE. I'm one of the kindest people around. And I really don't give a flying **** if some in IRL FAIL to recognise that fact. No I don't give a ****. And I can't wait not to have to wake up in this world, I'm sick of my old falling apart body, and hope it gives up soon, for I'm no longer of use to many so why the **** am I still here PS I am "old" and may have lied about the age of the body. Only I know the truth that this was never intentional and up until recently I looked - and felt -much younger, maybe i can add "delusional" to the laundry list of my ?? whatever who the **** cares ... I've tired papa bear out yet again and I only tell him a tiny fraction of how I feel. I'm useless why am I still here I have nobody to talk to and I deserve less ....Edit I'm a Christian a poor excuse for a Christian, I make mistakes and I'm too far from perfect, I should never ever do anything wrong even to those who have abused me and even unintentionally, I'm"wasting" time, I should delete this and of course, me, I'm"beyond help". Please note these are "just" my feelings, I'm "safe" in the technical sense but wish I wasn't and this is not intended to trigger, hence the double trigger warning,and this is about me the piece of **** who is fuzzybear, thank you! there is so much more going on which I have no intention of sharing, why should I trust? There is only one who I trust and that is so hard :

Doctors have been nothing but kind to me for some time, they want to help. But I know I'm "beyond help". I'm too "ill" (mostly physically) to heal, and they have no idea the level of distress they are trying to help, why should they, I've said so little for so long. (they only have to look at me to see I'm sick (

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I'm praying that all the above crap is nothing but lies from the enemy, the king of liars, and he who wishes nothing but death and destruction. Sorry if this is against the rules, I don't want to stir anything up. So so lost Silence. Alone, alone. Scary scary medical appointment next week, I've not been this
scared for so long des
Despite living in a place resembling hell for more than 2 years, feel free to ignore me or delete this, I deserve all the pain and nothing good. Please please don't hate me I'm not that monster, never was, somebody please help

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this post is probably "toxic" but how are we (those who have BPD amongst the other dxs like PTSD and severe depression (allergic to all m.eds so how the **** are we supposed to heal if we are condemned to silence forever in the darkness of a prison cell (condemend for life for their mistakes and abuses IRL. I know this is........ ) like back then when abused as a child by those cruel monsters ... I was so tiny and so hated. I did not deserve any of that

[Fuzzybear]

never mind. It doesn't matter.

[Crazy Hitch]

(((Fuzzybear)))

Some of your points are quite valid.

In your thread.

I do not want to dismiss your feelings as some of them come from genuine response to situations in your environment.

However, as one BPD diagnosed person to another, I shall say some of your thinking is quite Black and White.

I can recognise it because I have the same type of thinking.

It is important to reflect on our thinking processes.

And become aware if perhaps some of it is due to the fact that we are not looking outside of the box.

Our degree of our awareness of recognising this will be individual for us all.

Please have a look at my post on Black and White thinking.

Once you have read throug it.

Please go back to this post.

And see if there are other ways of thinking about some of the situations from a different point of view that you have stated.

Are there any alternatives to this view?

http://forums.psychcentral.com/borde...t-its-fun.html

((((((Fuzzy))))))

[Frankbtl]

Fuzzy, you are absolutely one of the kindest people around and I'm sorry if some people IRL haven't recognised it.........but if so.......well it's their loss!!! You know it, we know it!!!
And no matter how many bits of your body fall off or pack in, you are still going to be an amazing person. Your specialness is inside, is well beyond the physical
You might feel otherwise but to us it just shines through.
And believe me, you really don't deserve the pain, you do deserve so much more!!!
And whatever you do or don't want to say we're here for you..........
Just remember we aren't going to be judging you, and we care.
And the appointment..........well if you want to talk about it..........but either way, knowledge can be power. It can take you a step further to getting the help you need. And for support......well we're here.

Alison

[Angelique67]

Fuzzy, I'm just so sad you're feeling like this. You don't deserve this suffering at all. And the world needs you. I hope your appointment turns out the best possible. Hugs, ((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))

[Trippin2.0]

I wish I knew the words to make you feel better, but unfortunately I don't :0


I can say this though, I know, not think... I KNOW you're an absolutely wonderful person. You have a beautiful heart, a gentle soul, an aura of unabashed kindness.


I love you furry paws, don't let the MOFOS get you down. Don't give them the satisfaction.





Ps. If you're comfortable with it, you're welcome to PM me when its time for the DR, I'll pocket ride for you any day, any time.


Love you loads!!!!

[sensualcircular]

Dear FuzzyBear,

In the time that I've known you, I sincerely feel that you're such a sweetheart. You have shown support to so many on this site.

I agree that you should not trust anyone. However, I hope that you can make some sort of life for yourself, without relying on others.

I'm so sorry to hear about your physical health problems. It can take such a toll on the mind.

Please don't hate yourself. You're a sweet person with feelings, just like anyone else. You're a child of God. You're an equal.

I wish I could reach out to you and wave a magic wand and make your pain disappear, so I feel helpless

But, I really hope that you will not hate yourself so much. You deserve SO MUCH compassion and love. If others don't give it to you, let them go to hell. Please love yourself.

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I wish I knew the words to make you feel better, but unfortunately I don't :0


I can say this though, I know, not think... I KNOW you're an absolutely wonderful person. You have a beautiful heart, a gentle soul, an aura of unabashed kindness.


I love you furry paws, don't let the MOFOS get you down. Don't give them the satisfaction.





Ps. If you're comfortable with it, you're welcome to PM me when its time for the DR, I'll pocket ride for you any day, any time.


Love you loads!!!!

Trippin, what a lovely thoughtful response ! You are really good with words !

Thanks for a touching response.

[moodycow]

((((fuzzybear))) <3

[Dobby67]

I can relate to every word you said. Except IRL I don't know what that means.

Trusting people can't do. Body falling apart, wishing it would all just end absolutely. Everyday. Listening to my sister telling someone how they need to talk to me is degrading. Like I am stupid.
I help people all the time, so much so that I have gotten screwed every time. I just helped someone who said they would pay me back for the stuff I got her, just to find out that they have already been paid.
I was manipulated and used. My heart is as big as they come, I keep trying to find those people who are trustworthy. I fail. I get hurt in the process.
I am not worthy for anything. I don't deserve anything. I want to die everyday, I don't because I have my dog. He is the only reason I am on this planet.

So Fuzzy I understand what you are saying. Thank you so much for posting this. I know I am not alone.

oh i feel for you so much. dear fuzzy you are not useless or stupid or hated; you are very much valid and precious and lovely. every one of your posts on here makes me like you more; you are such a kind valuable contributor and you are so worth this.

[shezbut]

Fuzzybear,

You are loved.

[Mindful55]

Hey fuzzy bear

We love you..you make PC a better place

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