[allme]

Hi

I haven't needed to be here for quite a while but things seem to be changing...

A couple of years ago I found something called Kratom that was legal in my country and heard how it could relieve anxiety and depression. I was willing to try anything so this crushed leaf seemed harmless.

I cannot put into words how this wonderful leaf turned my life around. I went from an anxious, crazy depressed person, into a productive, happy person who loved every minute of every day.

Things were going that well I was promoted to manager within an agency I work. My life became everything I ever wanted it to be and more.

The last couple of weeks I have noticed something different...old ways are creeping back in and I am becoming once again volatile. To top it off the UK are adopting a blanket ban of untested substances such as the one I take. It is really targeting 'Legal Highs' and because of a lack of understanding, Kratom comes under that blanket.

So there it is, it seems my tolerance has grown and besides that it will be banned in a matter of months....if it wasn't to be banned I would still need to give it a break to sort my tolerance but that isn't an option any more as the leaf will no longer be an option.

I am currently in manager training and gradually the owner of the agency is passing more work over to me. My fear is without the Kratom I won't be able to do this. My fear is my whole perfect world will fall apart and become the volatile, anxious, depressive I once was.

Right now I am fricking scared of what the next few months will bring

[Kimaya]

Wow that kratom is expensive isn't it? That sucks that its working less... Do you take anything else?

[allme]

I take my usual meds...they work to a degree but still struggle to cope. Although the Kratom isn't working as well as it was I would of just stopped taking it for a month to get my tolerance in check but what with this ban it seems I have to quit altogether.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm sorry to hear about this.

That sucks it truly does because this is something that seems to have really helped you and helped you move not only forward but onward and upwards and now there is the chance it's just going to be taken away...... ughhh that's hard

The only thing that I can think to put out there - what if you begin cutting down in the interum and find something to substitute it with - I don't know if you'll ever find a substance that will be quite the same, obviously, so maybe you need to look at some kind of anti anxiety / stress reliever activity that you could be doing ... so that you don't have to suddenly go cold turkey if / when this change to the legislation occurs.

[NatashaGabber]

Thanks for advising about the benefits of Kratom. I will have to look out for it as my meds aren't really working anymore. What type of affect does it have, can you explain in more detail please?

I am not sure what to say, but I wanted to let you know that I read your post and I'm here for you. *hugs*

[Fuzzybear]

[Crazy Hitch]

Still thinking about you