It has not been a good week. One of the worst in a while. I took some things that were said to me the wrong way, but my head has got stuck on what was said. And I have not felt good since. I’m struggling to trust. I can only see the bad in everything. The world feels like a very dark lonely place all of a sudden and it’s quite scary. I feel like I want hide from everything.

It has taken a lot of strength to not give in to the self destructive urges that have been on my mind. But I am so tired now. I feel exhausted. I don’t really know how to handle this. I don’t know how to move on from this. I can’t change my state of mind. I have tried, really tried. But whatever I do it keeps coming back.

I just…I dunno if it’s worth it anymore. What is the point when everything just goes wrong anyway? I can’t handle this..

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry you have had such a bad week. I hope posting here will help somewhat. If you need to go into more detail you are welcome to PM me, if you just want to talk or vent. Don't give up. Things have a way of changing just when you think that they never will.

[dancinglady]

Things may not change and in my experience you need to do a lot of radical acceptance. Everything is as it should be. It is what it is. Hoping you can hold on with that notion. Don't wait just accept.

I don't want to accept. I can't accept. If I accept then everything is more real. I want to dismiss it and pretend like everything is ok. Even though I know it's not. How do you accept the unacceptable?

[Fuzzybear]

Sometimes people say the most ridiculous and harmful things, these things are NOT acceptable IMO. They are likely narcissists, in a position of "power" (in my case anyway. But basically they are holes near the posterior region....
And my brain has got stuck on some such garbage. It sucks. Maybe imagine flushing all the crap down a toilet. garbage in, garbage OUT you may have to do this each time the stupid intrusive thoughts occur

This is not about anyone on pc

I hope you feel better soon

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm sorry that you're having a week from hell

Keep posting here, we're here to listen

I'm having a lot of intrusive thoughts today...I just wanna go along with them. I am too tired to fight.

[Crazy Hitch]

I hope that your intrusive thoughts pass soon ..... let us know how the rest of your day went

The last couple of days have been a blur really. Lack of sleep is getting to me. I've been going to work but am unable to get anything done. May as well not be there really. Want to get drunk and just try to forget everything.