i dont know if this is a BPD thing but i am assuming it is but does anyone else feel like they desperately need someone even when that person has hurt them hundreds of times and that they would do anything for the person to stay with them even if it means hurting themselves. when i say hurting i mean like mentally like putting up with their crap pardon my language and doing things for them even if they have been horrible to you just because you feel like you need them. i sometimes want to bring this up with my psychologist but i am super embarrassed about feeling this way and have only briefly touched on the subject.

[Luctor]

Makes perfect sense. We hate being alone. Even if it means being with someone who treats us badly.

Yeah it just so tiring and I can't seem to stop no matter how many times I promise myself I won't speak to them or will not see them again I always cave at the slightest show of affection or interest. I don't like that I do that but it just seems to happen.

[Chuva]

Hi eden, yes it makes perfect sense to me.
I was with my ex BF for seven years even though he emotionally abused me, cheated on me, and was horrible to me most of the time. But I was completely melted when he told me he loved me. I couldn't be without him. I thought he was essential to me, that I couldn't live without him.

Sorry about your boyfriend. It is hard because i always feel so embarrassed and worthless when i let someone back in a little and ugh it is so exhausting.