[cmc3663]

I hate hate hate going to my psychiatrist. He's actually a really nice guy, it just makes me so anxious. It doesn't help that I am going to talk to him about anxiety. I had a baby on July 18th and have been struggling really badly with generalized anxiety and panick attacks since then. I've taken benzos before but I am nervous this doctor won't prescribe them. Ugh. I'm anxious about having anixety. Part of it is that I don't want my doctor to dislike me. I have been doing so well with my BPD symptoms that I don't want him to see me like this with my anxiety problems. I know that sounds dumb.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Be sure to tell him about your anxiety. I know it's hard. Describe symptoms. He won't know you're struggling otherwise and can't treat you properly.

I minimize too at my appts and I don't know why.

Good luck.

[Pastel Kitten]

I feel you. I get anxious over anxiety so frequently...and seeing my therapist makes me feel very anxious even moreso than my previous psychiatrist despite both being kind people (looking for a new psychiatrist since I just moved). I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious and I hope you get on the right meds.

[cmc3663]

He gave me a script for vistaril. I didn't ask but I'm guessing he just doesn't give out benzos. It sucks because I know benzos work for me and would hello so much better. Sigh. I'll try and make it work with the vistaril for now.

I'm not seeing a therapist right now but I have an appointment with a new one on the 17th. I'm not even thinking about that yet because of all the anxiety it will cause.

[Pastel Kitten]

I wish you luck with your appointment. Remember that there is no right or wrong way to start opening up. You can start from pretty much anywhere, and at your own pace.