[mossanimal]

So I've recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder (spectrum, atypical) and some new things have come to light and I'm almost 99% sure they are going to change my diagnosis to BPD. This is in response to a psychotic breakdown where I broke a crap load of things after a minor argument with wife (I don't remember hardly any of it.. and I was by myself thank goodness). A month or so ago I was hospitalized for overdosing on percocet during a similar breakdown.

My family history and life history had very strong parallels to what one would expect with a bipolar II type disorder... and my dad was exactly the same way. Anyway.... this is a hard blow. In some ways the bipolar diagnosis was very encouraging for myself and my wife because it seemed to have a cure and perhaps long periods of either normality or hypomanic benefit. I was never diagnosed earlier with anything because I've been on a long 'vacation' of travel, graduate school, working on fishing boats and dive boats, nature/travel photography, jumping from one thing to another... temporary relationships... good times. But then I got married and a lot of my past came catching up real quick. So I've been trying to figure out things for the last 7 years and I KNOW that this BPD thing is the problem. I don't know what I'm asking here... guess I'm just looking for hope.