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Mar 14, 2017, 07:32 PM
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Tonight I was on the phone with my sister (she is 19 and I am 22 if that's relevant) and she told me she got into college and that she was going to be a teacher. I have a college degree and currently am getting my master's in school counseling, but I was still jealous of her for some reason. I was trying so hard to be happy for her and I was saying nice things but my voice just wouldn't sound happy enough. I couldn't force it to happen because I know deep down I secretly wish she would be going to school for a non-education related field, because I constantly feel like I'm in competition with her and don't want to be "competing" with her career-wise. So then I got on this thing where I decided I wouldn't have to feel like I'd be competing with her if she were an early childhood teacher, since I only work with middle school students, and then I started convincing her to do an early-childhood education degree. I told her all this stuff about how teaching younger children requires a totally different personality- one that I thought she had. I totally played that area of teaching up and made a huge deal of it. And after I hung up the phone I realized that part of my convincing her to do early childhood was that I have this secret feeling deep down like early childhood is less challenging than middle school and requires less expertise and that I wanted to feel like I had the "better" job or that I would be the "more skilled" teacher at the end of the day. It doesn't even make any logical sense now, but it made sense in that moment
 It's so horrible. I feel so bad right now. What is wrong with me
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Mar 14, 2017, 09:09 PM
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You have a lot of insight into your behavior. And it didn't seem that mean to me...selfish ,maybe ,but i don't think your talking up early childhood education actually hurt anyone, did it?
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Mar 14, 2017, 11:11 PM
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Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder ("Pure O" Type), Social Anxiety Rx: Lorazepam PRN |
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Mar 15, 2017, 08:41 AM
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If anything you said about her personality being best for early childhood education then I'd say you gave her some expensive career counseling for free.
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