[mixtape1234]

I was diagnosed a few months ago and I still find it hard to accept it. I know I have always felt like I am worth less, and that my feelings are stronger than most peoples.

But we can not really choose how to react, right? But it is so difficult to be with someone who does not understand how it's like...

Like today, my boyfriend said his new roomie was going to move in tomorrow. And he has not told my this until now, the day before. Even though he knew how hard it was for me to even be at his place with his last roomie there. I just hang up and started crying. And now I feel really bad, you know I feel so ashamed for reacting like that.

I just want to be a normal person. Does anybody have any tips? Or just some time to talk. I would like to meet and talk to people with similar problems.

[Trippin2.0]

Have you thought about trying DBT?

It helps with emotional regulation and has literally been a relationship saver for me.

[mixtape1234]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Have you thought about trying DBT?

It helps with emotional regulation and has literally been a relationship saver for me.

I would like to try it, heard good things about it. But my doctor just wrote a prescription for medication, and said that I would be called to some sort of therapy. But it was like four months ago, maybe it just takes time...

[subtle lights]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I know how it is to have strong emotions and not being able to relate to oters ad trying to repress them.
I'm here if you'd like to talk.

[mixtape1234]

Originally Posted by subtle lights

I'm sorry you're going through this. I know how it is to have strong emotions and not being able to relate to oters ad trying to repress them.
I'm here if you'd like to talk.

I just feel so helpless, like I am really trying so hard but it always goes back to the point where I feel sad, angry and empty. I would really like to talk further!

[subtle lights]

How it's going with the new roommate? You said he is going to move in soon.

I often have these sudden moments of desperation just from having a thought of a possibility I don't want to happen, but also often the reality is better than these dark expectations of it...Though in that moment I'm too lost in the dark emotions to be able to not get desperate even though I might know rationally that it won't last forever.

Also you mentioned you got some medication, but no therapy. I think therapy would be very helpful though... I've been told that medication doesn't really help with BPD, but maybe it depends on the symptoms, everyone is different.