[sinking]

Do you ever wonder...

what am i doing?

what have i done?

how can this be my life?

how did i end up here?

what do i do now?

...when you realize you whole life has been just a huge mistake

...when your whole life has been set up on something you're not sure you want anymore...

...when doubts could ruin everything or save everything

...when you're not sure about anything anymore

what do you do at this point?

[carrie_ann]

((((sinking)))) sorry i have no advice for you, just hugs and wishes things get better for you

[Blaire]

Give yourself credit for all the challenges you've overcome. Life is always a work in progress.

[sinking]

These thoughts are plaguing me constantly. im SO tired. SO tired.

i dont know what to do so i do nothing....

I feel like crying all the time but i cant....

i can only imagine feeling the tears, warm and salty, running down my cheeks....

Possible trigger:

sui thoughts are back

[Little Jay]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, I think like this all the time and it completely takes over my brain at times. I understand the feeling the need to cry but being unable to - I get that a lot. Do you have a crisis plan (or whatever they may call it where you are) to get support for your suicidal thoughts?

[sinking]

These stupid imaginary tears wont stop running down my cheeks.

i dont have a crisis plan and i dont trust my T anymore. im all alone.

nothing horrible is going on right now, but i dont have any hope for the future.

and i hate the present... everything. im a total failure.

im ashamed to be alive. i shouldnt be here, i would like to be gone. why didnt it happen? nothing good came from being saved. why do i have to make all these efforts to just barely exist? im not strong enough to live.

i force myself to distort reality with others and even with myself, so that it wont seem so hopeless, but deep down i know it is