[Fromtheworst]

I just need to write it down and sort it out. Maybe some advice or words of support. I'm trying really hard not to spiral.

I work at a casino that is inside a restaurant. I got talked to today about my attitude because apparently "everybody" has gone to my boss that I am "different" than before. I was kind of caught off guard. There was some truths to what he said and other things that are way off. So I explained I'm a sarcastic asshole and people don't know when I'm joking. Which is whatever.

But the passed couple weeks I've had some huge stressors. My mom and I had a falling out, I almost got kicked out of my apartment and had like 3 inspections in 2 months. I got it all taken care of. But it was horrible. Then lots of fighting with the boyfriend, which mostly was caused by me over reacting because I was under a ton of stress and we all know how that feels. And I have constant back pain, from stress I think but it gives me even a shorter fuse.

I tried explaining that to the boss and he says leave your home life at home. And I'm just thinking how in the hell am I supposed to do that? I mean I get it, but how much am I supposed to explain to people when for 1 it's none of their business and 2 no one ****ing gets it. I can't help it. And I mentioned therapy because I'm getting ready to start and he said what's that matter if your sad that isn't gonna make you happy and i was a little bit like what the ****. Then i started crying a bit which makes me so mad. I dunno, I don't know how far I'm supposed to explain this **** to people. If I ****ing had cancer people would get it. I've never really had issues with my attitude at my place of work, I would just stop showing up. But I love my job so I won't do that.

I don't know, I'm going to try to change my attitude but now I really don't want to talk to anyone. No one leaves their problems at home. And I have become very close to my regulars and that's what happens when you work in a casino. I become friends with these people, they know my life. He never said anything about customers complaining but yeah I'm just upset and I feel stupid and shameful. And it's not fair.

[baboo5]

It's not fair. Some people suck - your boss is one of them.

Sorry you are going through this.

[Fromtheworst]

Thank you so much for that simple response. I'm very sensitive and emotional. No one has ever done that for me, people usually try to give me a solution, tell me not to dwell, think or worry about it, or whatever. I can't believe how much I needed that. Thank you complete stranger on the internet.