Are you a scapegoat for anyone? The one blamed for every problem or failure, etc ????

I'm the one to blame for everything. Rain, global warming, destiny. by my dysfunctional family including parents, siblings, and even my grown children who are heavily opinionated and outspoken like their dads who make me a scapegoat too. Basically they're perfect and I'm not so they can abuse me. Well now that we have that all figured out...

Being a scapegoat I can either sit there and take their abuse (which I usually do silently without emotion if I choose to be with them which is usually never at this point), or tell them all to FO, then flee, and go meet a new bunch of friends and new activities (although the children bring me extreme sadness down deep with negative self-talk that torments me, usually while trying to go to sleep and in my dreams, like punishing myself for my failures, every day and night).

Cycle begins all over. Scapegoat-Friends/Life-Flee-Alienate-Alone

If anyone else is dealing with this feeling of failure, being absolutely alone on the planet with no one who understands them, and someone on the sidelines laughing at you, we have something in common. I hurt for you.

[cryingontheinside]

I'm sorry you are feeling like or get treated like a scapegoat .
I don't get treated that way but I can relate to the isolation and being alone . I don't participate in activities or have friends since I kept them all at a distance for too long . I know what it feels like to be alone and isolated . the only friends I have are on the internet through a game I play . it keeps me sane to an extent but they don't know the real me or the problems I have .