[Pastel Kitten]

I have been working for 2 months now and I had started to feel more confident in what I was doing (I'm a cashier/work at customer service and this is my first job).

Last shift it turns out one of my managers had to speak to me about being too lenient with customers who demand getting their way.

I was allowing people to manipulate me into getting what they want. I have tried saying no and that it bypasses store policy but seeing how angry they get with me makes me horribly anxious.

I do not cope well with people being angry at me AT ALL even though I know I'm just a store rep and not the one who came up with the rules, therefore I can't control it.

I'm about to go to work and I'm thinking I'll have to take Ativan because I didn't start getting anxiety at work until recently.

I wish I weren't so damn sensitive and that I could just allow people's words to slide off of me without penetrating me in what feels like the core of my being (sorry for being dramatic, but that's how greatly it affects me).

I have no idea how to build emotional armor and defend myself from people. I was always horrible at that.

PS. I can't stand that one of my managers treats me in such condescending manners. I'm not allowed to make mistakes without getting rude little remarks or gestures. (Not the same manager who had a talk with me).

[lucyjon]

Never wish you weren't sensitive. It's not a crime and it's what's lacking in this world. The fact people's words hurt you show's you have a heart of gold. "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also"(Matthew 6:21). I suffer from this too, but my personality disorder is slowly hardening my heart. Words do hurt, yet my stepdaughter whom I love won't even talk to me anymore. I feel she never loved me and not hearing her voice or her hugs is depressing me more.
Only way to build emotional armor is to avoid toxic relationships. I admitted on Facebook about me Borderline Personality Disorder and have lost more 'freinds' because of this. In the past lost 'friends' because I believe in God and became a Christian. Just wanted to let you know I am too hurting and the fact I can't get counseling for my personality disorder is daunting. I am here to support you and if in the future you want to contact me let me know. People with heart's like ours need to stick together in this brutal world. Just take care dear heart, don't change because the world wants us to change. Stay strong and firm in yourself, because you are needed, you have a purpose, you are beautiful in spirit, and you are unique. When people's words start hurting you, think of me if it helps (a man whose stepdaughter no longer loves him). Again I care and hope the best for you.

[junkDNA]

youll get better at it. ive been working retail for 4 yrs. it was hard at first but now i dont give a **** about rude customers

[LittleEarthquakes]

I'm wondering if a coping technique called Shielding would be good for you. This is good for sensitive people. What you do is you visualize a white light surrounding you and keeping the rest of the world out, so that negativity can not touch you and influence your energy. This obviously requires practice but it can be very useful once you get the hang of it.

[elevatedsoul]

im like this as well... i get triggered easily...
you're not alone... maybe one day we pures will take over the world

[Fuzzybear]