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I have been looking for help with my issues for along time but have not found anything suitable. I have had some past dealings with the mental health services before, but the service I revived was unsatisfactory and ended up with my treatment being cut short due to the therapist leaving, or being shuffled from place to place until the paperwork was lost. In the most recent case, I was involved in case of malpractice, exploitation and abuse by a therapist.
I don't have an actual diagnosis, as I have been labelled with having everything from general mood disorder, to depression, to schizoid traits. I personally believe that I suffer from borderline personality disorder, although I don't have anything to back that up other than the diagnostic requirements seeming to fit. I have not spoken to another person in 3 years. I have not had a meaningful relationship with another person in close to a decade. I rarely leave the house. I don't eat most days. I go through periods of delusion, obsessive fixation, and most frequently, extreme anger. I try to distract myself from these thoughts, but it rarely works for long, I usually find myself lost in thought of revenge, or lamenting the loss of what I used to be before all this. It's important that someone helps me deal with this since I am incapable of doing it alone and the situation is becoming dangerous. At the time I am writing this I am feeling lucid, but that can change quickly. I have come close to suicide many times and even homicide. No matter what I do I can't shake these thoughts and these subjects are the only things I can think about when going to sleep, the first thing I think about when I wake up and occupy most of my waking life. |
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Hello Zehm: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral!
![]() ![]() https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/ There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. ![]() ![]() P.S. I also have no diagnosis although I've been kicking around the mental health system where I live for going on 20 years now. ![]() ![]() ![]()
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