Intense Unstable Relationships

I honestly don’t know if I have BPD. I’ve been diagnosed with traits and with EDD by different docs.

Yes, my issues are with interpersonal relationships. Yes, there have been several I could describe as intense and unstable.

Most of all, my husband.
Now it’s my oldest son, who I have loved immensely until he turned on us.
I lost my sister over nothing, she acted much more unstable than me tbh.
Ex bfs have been intense and unstable, but I broke up with them- not the other way around.

So I don’t know how much is a problem with me. But there is an ongoing bad intimacy problem with my marriage and I am just exhausted.

I’ve even had gfs who could be described the same and had to end it with them.
It’s more like I am a magnet for them, not that I am the aggressor in any of these problematic relationships.

But now I’m on serious meds to cope, and I. Am. Just. Exhausted.

I am wishing you healing, peace and rest. I am usually a rock solid person emotionally, but between home and work I am also exhausted. I wish I could say something more or something wise, but just know that I have empathy for what you feel and I want to extent warm hugs and blessings.

Hello. I too have unstable relationships history. I am BPD. Also bi polar depression likes to tag in. My marriage is ruined. I wanted the split. Until he really did leave. What I really wanted was for him to HEAR me. And treat me with the same compassion I did him. I have too many issues.

You aren't a magnet for unstable relationships, it is just that there are so many unhealthy people.

We gravitate to what we know. I liked the unhealthy people and found the healthy ones boring.

Dealing with all this definitely sounds exhausting, and when you feel that way it's time to take a break and self-care.

Sometimes it just seems life itself is exhausting and then we get exhausted more in dealing with ourselves. But there is still hope.

I decided to take time off from, just about everything (except work) to work on myself and make self-improvements, heal. Sometimes you need to do that.