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I got caught b/p. I want to ****ing kill myself. To have food being found in your room as your puking your guts out at 2am is absolutely horrifying and humiliating. The worst part is...I'm 23 and my dad caught me...he didn't know that I'm still doing this. I was waiting on the screaming from him and it never came....I'm just one disappointment after another to my parents..they deserve a better daughter. One that isn't me. One that has goals and does things and makes something out of herself. Not this huge failure. I've been bulimic going on ten years now...and I've been so scared of this taking my life, but now I'm just to the point that I hope it does take my life.
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Why are you bulimic? What purpose does it serve? Do you see a therapist?
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors. |
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have you ever been on medication? I was once prescribed tofrinol (not sure of the spelling) and it was like magic. I was so normal I had no urge to binge. In my case sadly I was allergic so I had to stop taking it. Give yourself a break...this is not your fault and it sucks so bad but, that doesn't mean that you are not wonderful and lovable and precious.
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Thinking of you. I feel your pain. I really do. I can relate. Please get some help. You deserve help, not suffering.
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Sorry to hear about ur pain that u are feeling now. I can relate in so many ways. Hang in there and please talk to someone. Seek out a T or someone you can talk to.
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