[CalmingOcean]

Why the **** can't I stop binging

AAAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!

So frustrated with my self.

Self- you need to quit binging to stop purging, need to quit binging to stop the stealing, it's all connected I'm so ****ed. Inpatient didn't work for me I was there for two months!! God what's it going to take?!

Possible trigger:

Just kill me now.

[CANDC]

I am sorry Calming Ocean you are feeling so frustrated with yourself, your actions and ED in general.

It sounds from the list of things you tried that professional help is called for at this point.

Anyone that feels they are liable to do self harm should set up a safety plan. here are possible links to explore that.
Psych Central - Search results for Safety plan

[waggiedog]

Dear CalmingOcean. As someone who has, and still does suffer, amongst other eating disorders, from the same as yourself I DO UNDERSTAND your utter frustration and anger concerning your problem. It is indeed very isolating and frankly, I feel both very embarrassed and ashamed. I'm old, yet my long time close friends have no idea what really makes me tick (and makes me ill and very depressed sometimes). They know I've been in psych hospital a few times but not the real reason how I ended up there. They assume it's clinical depression so I leave it at that. It's ED's and always has been. Because I try and severely restrict for as long as possible, I've kinda kept the worst of the expensive binges at bay. I too have actually stole food many many times in the past, I've never told anyone that before, and I've no doubt I'd do it again if I felt I was forced to (I should say "driven" to). For that's what our disorder feels like, we are totally driven to do what we feel, are "insane" things, end of. I wish I could tell you the magic answer, but I don't know of any. I do know that certain things, many things occurring as we grew up, have significance in our actions. For me it was coming from a family of compulsive eaters whose lives and loves revolved around food. All of the women were excellent good old fashioned cooks, showing love to us by providing plentiful good stodgy British food, wartime favourites!!! If we hurt ourselves Mum gave us chocolate! I hope now you don't feel so alone in all of this, there's lots of us here who sure identify and understand you. Love and Hugs. Xxx

[ComfortablyNumb5]

My pdoc put me on vyvance. It's for ADD but has also been approved for binge eating. Its helped me wonders. However it's a stimulant so it altars the way you feel for a bit. I wen from binging and purging up to 5 times a day, to 2 times a wk. however my tolerance level gets pretty high very quickly so I already need my dose increased.

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Originally Posted by RxQueen875

My pdoc put me on vyvance. It's for ADD but has also been approved for binge eating. Its helped me wonders. However it's a stimulant so it altars the way you feel for a bit. I wen from binging and purging up to 5 times a day, to 2 times a wk. however my tolerance level gets pretty high very quickly so I already need my dose increased.

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thanks for sharing your experience

i'm glad you found something that works for you.

i'm a massive binger too and i'll bear it in mind