No thanks!

Iv'e been being treated for a little over a year now. I'm currently taking anti depressants and it seemed to work for a while. I was eating correctly and my mood was greatly improved. Im done with all that now. Ive gained a whopping 15 pounds since iv'e started medication! People keep telling me that iv'e put on weight "but it looks good though". Please what does that even mean! Iv'e always had a fear of meeting new people because I know they will take one look and think I am disgusting. It's happening now. So i'm done with it! I feel awful and when I confronted my doctor all she said was that I am normal weight. Can they not see how I feel? How disgusting I feel? How my fears have come true? I can't even speak to people after not seeing them in a while because that's the first thing they comment on my weight. I'm finished. No more. What's the point in trying to be better? So I'm just going to get bigger and bigger? I just can't anymore.

I'm sorry this has happened to you. Weight is not something I should be concerned about anymore at my age. But I am. And it is one of the reasons I won't go back on psych med's. Hopefully you're seeing a therapist & that can be of some help. I wish you well...

I have felt just like you do. I was sure I am disgusting to look at and have even been called names by complete strangers. I was called a pig and a cow and a fat B. It has hurt so bad. I am just trying lately to just take each day as it comes and if one day is not good then I start a "new beginning" the next day and start over. I do feel like a completely unapealing person.