Do you feel “unworthy”

((((Everyone)))) You're all worthy of love and attention. I'm sorry other people made you believe the opposite.

I agree. I feel unworthy (defective) a lot of the time and try to fight it. Sometimes I am successful and sometimes not. I never feel that I fit in and I’m especially sensitive to perceived rejection. My dad was abusive and both were neglectful and unable to show love or affection. It did a number on me that I’m still trying to work through.

I do positive affirmations morning and evening that are starting to help and I’ve made peace with my parents long ago. Hopefully one day I will feel worthy more often.

I have felt unworthy of love for many years. I am starting to investigate my own case of CEN which has made my life much more difficult and much more meaningless.

I am so thankful that CEN is finally being studied and given its proper place with mental health treatment. For many years I had therapists who seemed to have little idea of what I was talking about and no idea of how to properly treat it.

I am now starting to delve into childhood issues in, hopefully, a more successful way. My issues include a parent who raised me to be their caretaker and treated me almost as a slave. She did not believe in childhood and raised me to be an adult from the start. A parent who did not care about my happiness or success or my future, and who discouraged me from seeking friendship and love and taught me no interpersonal skills so that my life would be centered around her. She was cold and cruel, she did not hug her kids and her style was to always criticize and tear you down; she was a real narcissist who was unapologetic to the end.

Everyday is a struggle that I go through alone. I just do not trust or enjoy the company of other people very much though I am always trying.

Quite honestly, I've never even thought about this, but certain behaviors of mine make me think that I've been living with the unconscious conviction that I'm unworthy. I'm always surprised, incredibly so, when people are nice to me. Somebody seduced me once and I ground to a halt. I have a very hard time recognizing my positive traits. I can't even see them, to be honest. I blame all of this on my parents being rarely there for me when I was a kid and to nearly-incessant bullying in elementary and middle school (well, I get bullied nowadays as well, but that's another story)