[InACorner]

im sad...very sad because still no one believes me...and even the small amount who DO believe me cant and wont help me to do anything about it ...so awhile back ive been having pain oh for like 5 months now...chronically to the point where i take my boyfriends prescribed pain ( even though they are over the counter....they are at a higher dosage because of his neck thats the only reason they are prescribed) so like a few months ago i kinda threw a hissy fit because i was sick of the pain and people got mad so i shut up after the doctor told me i was a hypochondriac...but its days like these...the ones that practically have me in tears and severly limit my ability at my job that just make me feel crappy....it hurts...everything hurts....there is throbbing...and then sharp intense pain....and then there is more throbbing.....its not fun i assure you....and im just sad ...very sad because i hurt soo much....my joints hurt...my bones hurt....sometimes my bones will give out ..i dont know if its the bone but i will slip because my hip feels like it went out of place....or i cant use my hand at all....and grasping is a killer .....having to grasp patients...and grasp wheelchairs and grasp food...anthing that involves me grasping and holding onto tight is just utterly impossible for me.....but ive kept my mouth shut ....not said a word ....except to my boyfriend who lets me have his pain pills at night...otherwise i cant sleep because the pain is too great....sorry for my rant.....i just am really sad and it makes me really sad i cant enjoy things like i used to and i cant do things that i would normally be able to do...as for the whole doctor thing...id have to find a different doctor.... and doing that outside the family will be hard but i need to wait another two months before my insurance kicks in.....so trudging along i go....

(((((((((((((inny)))))))))))))))

i'm with you honey and i love and believe in you. keep reaching out here, we're all here for support and to listen and help all we can.

sending you some happy and healing vibes today.

take care, speak soon, love you e.mom.

xoxoxoxxoxoxo

[onyx69000]

sorry to hear you are in such a place as to have no meds when needed!!!!! what is the problem? what hurts????? do you or have you tried a pain doc? mine hooks me up with just about anything i request with in reason. i have tn trigeminal neuralgia-onyx

[InACorner]

honestly i cant tell you the problem cuz i have no idea. My bones hurt ...my joints hurt....sometimes its to the point where i cant move my arm or leg...my hip joint sometimes seems to slip...i guess you could say...i get regular daily headaches and i have a lump on my chest...whether that is all connected i dont know but it hurts ....its throbbing pain...i cant walk for long distances..even though i do its killer....i dont know..and im always pretty tired .....as for seeing a doctor....i went to a normal doctor and he said i was a hypochrondriac and gave me a trial basis of lexapro..which didnt do anything because i heard it needs to be taken for some time before it does anything ...well when my insurance kicks in about two more months than i might ask if its ok to go see another doctor...

[tranquility]

I believe you sweetie! I'm sorry you are hurting - pain is not fun!

I hope you get the insurance soon and I would try to get into a specialist - perhaps a rheumatologist and they can do blood test to make sure there are no diseases lurking.

Take a nice hot shower and relax.

-Tranquility

[InACorner]

thanks for believing me...its nice to hear that ....speaking of which do any of you know what i can do to sooth tremendous amounts of throbbing pain?

[tranquility]

Where is the pain?

[InACorner]

everywhere...its in my bones and in my joints....my shins my ankles and my hands especially/wrists and shoulders

[(JD)]

(((inny))) I believe you.

You can find some hypnosis scripts to do yourself, online, to help escape some of the pain. (The price is right, anyway) I didn't have any medicines to help me for the first 8 years of my disability! (And 3 years of that my lower jaw was off both hinges.) People didn't believe me? or the ins co didn't want to acknowledge me.

[onyx69000]

i belive you . i hope you find a good doc to take good care of you. don't know what it could be. such diff points of pain. sorry i wish i could be of more help. but i am here to listen as well if you want to talk.-onyx

[tranquility]

Try a hot bath (or shower, I can't get in a bathtub). If you can take some ibuprofen that may help.

If the pain is that bad in all your joints it could be lymes disease or rheumatoid arthritis - getting to the doc for some blood test will be a big help.

(((((((gentle hugs)))))))

Tranquility