Tired of discrimination

I have more diseases than I can count. I've had over 40 surgeries. When I went to the hospital too much I was accused of being a "frequent flyer". I get treated like a drug addict despite the fact that I don't slur my words, have never tested positive for anything other than what I'm prescribed etc. I get treated so bad I avoid doctors and hospitals like the plague. So, now instead of being a "frequent flyer" I must "not really be in pain because if I was really in pain I would go to the ER more frequently".
I can't win. It's not enough that I have suffered in excruciating pain every single second of every single day for the past 20 years of my life but I can't even get help! I go to pain management. I have a great doctor but he has moved several times in the last 20 years. This new place he went to has all these rules and quite honestly, I never know if I'm going to see him or not because they lie about whether he is there or not. For awhile my mom was able to take me but 3 years ago she was diagnosed with dementia and can't drive. She was my only support system. I have no one. I have no friends or family I can count on. I'm depressed.
I'm so stressed. I can't even go into everything that is going on in my life but everything is falling apart. I feel like I'm drowning and I have no one to help me. It's pretty sad considering that I was always the rock for my family, always. But, anytime I've needed them they have never been there. Still aren't there. I'm not really sure what to do anymore.

Hello Ripdic: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support. By the way, are you familiar with PC's sister website: NeuroTalk? There are a lot of members over there who have quite a bit of experience with a wide variety of physiological / medical conditions. If you're not already familiar, you might take a look at the forums over there as well:

https://www.neurotalk.org/

I wish you well...

I understand completely. I've only been in bad pain for about 10 years and haven't had so many surgeries so that part is just heartbreaking to hear but I do have been treated like a drug seeker when going to the ER and like crap for not going as often as I should because they don't do anything but make me feel bad so what is the point? I really get it. I'm so sorry your support system is so bad. You can PM me anytime if you need to vent. I'd probably understand or at least listen which is sometimes what we need most of all. (Along with a nice morphine drip or induced coma) sleep is my only saving grace and sometimes my nightmares are all about pain and torment so that even fails me sometimes. My heart breaks for you. Please stay safe.

Thanks hon! I sent you a PM!

Thank you! I wil go check that out as well! Thanks for responding too, much appreciated!