[Beautiful_Pain]

I'm in agony. Sitting here, lying in bed--it doesn't matter. I want to cry, just keep crying until crying kills me. I'm so F'ing TIRED of feeling bad. My knees are huge and hot, my hands are so stiff I'm typing with the side of a finger, because I can't turn my wrist enough to type with the pad of my finger. I can barely bend my wrists-or elbows, my shoulders can barely move my arms. My legs are barely responsive, it takes so much before they even begin to move--they feel so heavy. I can barely get my legs to bend or flex to even move, so much worse to try to drag myself around 'walking'. Since my knees are bad, I've been walking funny--and its hurting my hips and ankles worse. My back is on the verge of some major spasms. My neck--IDK, when I move it it sounds like rubbing wet/oily rocks around on each other, and if I put my head back, it pops and crackles. I can't get comfortable enough to sleep well, and when I do, I wake up alot because I can't just turn over--I have to wake up and try hard for 5-10 minutes before I get turned over...then my joints are on fire, so I can't just go back to sleep, I have to lay there and feel the fire until it calms down enough for me to fall back asleep. It's hell, I swear I'm in hell.

[bebop]

hon can you get some of the ibuprophen? I know you said it worked great a couple of weeks ago. I am sorry you are in so much pain.

[Beautiful_Pain]

I take 800mg of ibuprofen every 4 hours, its not doing Anything Though I took my next to last pain killer and I am feeling a little better. I hope I can get to the doc soon, I'm down to my last pain killer, and maybe I could get a prednisone burst or something--by the second day I could feel a differnce last time (and only time lol) I had a prednisone burst. -shrug- Something, I'll try just about anything right now

Thanks bebop

[bebop]

hon I really hope you can find relief. I hurt for you!