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Trigger Warning
Okay so my review with my GP is coming up to determine if I will return to work soon or not. I don't know. Last time I was out for the anxiety, panic attacks, depression, I returned to work feeling pretty good and requested some minor accommodations which my supervisor said there shouldn't be any problem with. When I got to work it was like all of that was never talked about, in fact it seemed to have been made worse. I work in a very large Emergency Department at a local hospital. So.....I ended out again because of the stress, anxiety and panic attacks all over again. It was like my progress was all for nothing. So this time, do I chance that they are going to do the same thing to me again? I'm already having visions of elderly men coming in with bleeding from the head. It's quiet common, older people fall a lot. But then that triggers me with the flashback of finding Dad. My FMLA time is out, and they are talking about putting me on unbenefited leave, which means no insurance, my main reason for working. *sigh* Has anyone had to leave their job due to this? |
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i fortunately have very understanding boss and she puts me before my job. if there was something i couldnt handle, she would give that duty to someone else. fortunately, due to my ptsd/DID, i am very good at dissociating and i am able to compartmentalize easily and not let my work impact me too much. that didnt stop a breakdown a couple weeks ago when i ran smack into someone walking out of my office. scared the crap out of me and triggered a panic attack. was able to see my two clients fine but then i couldnt function and wasnt able to teach class that night. but i knew i had coverage so i think that is why it was ok to break down.
there are a couple things i do for panic attacks/anxiety that have helped me cope. maybe they will help you as well. a way to stop panic attacks is to relax. it is physically impossible to panic and relax at the same time. you dont even have to really relax. just fool your brain into thinking you are relaxing. imagine as if you just did a meditation or had a massage and all your muscles have turned into limp noodles. just let them all go. this will stop the panic attack. you may have to do it a couple times over your first tries, but when i started doing this it ended the attacks and soon i never had a panic attack again, i have this thing called an anxiety meter that i visualize in my head. it goes from 0 to 10, 10 being the worst anxiety ever. so when i am anxious, i see where the needle registers on the meter. then i do breathing exercises until i get it down to a four. which is manageable for me. sometimes i see a knob on the meter and i will manually turn down the meter to four so i can calm down faster. practicing this enough, all i have to do now when i am anxious is say dial down, and i can calm myself. |
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That would be good if you have the time to do that. We hit the ground running 95% of the time and don't stop until we get off work. This why so many Ed staff get UTI's because we don't have time to pee, much less relax. Dinner break you can sit down for 30minutes, well actually about 15 by the time you walk to the break room from your assignment and fix your dinner. But your ideas are good, maybe I can use them later. Thanks.
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