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Old Apr 11, 2015, 09:35 PM
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Recently I was diagnosed with C-PTSD after finding my father
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. I'm really having a hard time with it on some levels, but what surprises me most is how this one event caused all these other emotions to raise their ugly heads again. Before I fought these one at a time pretty much, now they are bombarding me.

I was in the USAF, then a Police Officer for 18 yrs., worked on disaster teams and vol. fire and rescue for about 10 years. So I've had a lot of exposure to unpleasant things and had a emotional childhood. Yes, I'm as messed up as a soup sandwich.

Just hard to find a place to start, counseling seems to be going at a snails pace, my job, currently in an Emergency Room, is on the line, so I want to get my sessions in while I still have insurance.
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Old Apr 12, 2015, 04:13 AM
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wow sorry Trace I was in the USAF too though I didn't have the exposure that you had as a policeman and fireman , I have been going to the VA for many years doing therapy but the thing that helped the most was lithium for me have you been diagnosed with anything ?
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Old Apr 12, 2015, 04:22 AM
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Not sure if EMDR is appropriate for CPTSD? Or for specific traumas? I have heard that it can work really quickly for some people.

Sorry to hear the circumstances involving your father, that sounds really tough.

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Old Apr 12, 2015, 04:49 AM
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i think EMDR is a very effective treatment for c-PTSD. i have c-PTSD and integrative therapy helps me, but i'm on a waiting list for EMDR as well.
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Old Apr 12, 2015, 04:27 PM
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EMDR helped me with a single issue trauma, and I will be going back for more to try and resolve CPTSD. It isn't easy, but it does work fairly quickly in terms of processing the traumatic memories, and so dealing with the worst of it. I'd recommend giving it a try.

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Old Apr 13, 2015, 02:46 PM
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I did try EMDR soon after Dad's incident, but it was too soon for me to really focus on anything. Does that sound odd to get counselling too soon after something like that? I think it did help, it was through EAP, and I'm not sure how much longer I will have my job an be able to use that. Thanks everyone for your input.
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Old Apr 18, 2015, 02:24 PM
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You sound like a VERY strong person. You have my respect. You were in the military, then you were a police officer, and now you're working in the ER, wow! Even the strongest of us need to be comforted and have a support system. You will get through this. A parent's death is always very hard to deal with, especially when they pass in such an unexpected way. Your father is in peace now and his suffering has ended. Putting yourself first and really taking care of how you feel is the utmost importance now.
Now you get to focus on your own needs and make sure you are your own best friend during this time, while also gathering friends to help comfort you. Look for healthy ways to make you feel better. Yoga, making delicious meals for yourself, exercising, group therapy, counseling, listening to music or audio books, going to a spa, getting a massage, taking nice long drives to beautiful locations like the beach or the mountains or a park. You will be fine. You can get through this.
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Old Apr 18, 2015, 09:45 PM
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Thanks ComicRose, not everyone that does those jobs has remarkable strength, in fact we need support more than most, but we tend to suffer in silence to keep those around us safe and happy. Letting down our walls can be very dangerous for us, because it's the only thing that keeps us upright most of the time. There's no motivation to take care of me, or to move forward, I just am.
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Old Apr 19, 2015, 10:56 AM
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Trace, I have been meaning to buy this book for my collection because I am living with an elderly parent. This book might be of some comfort to you as well. It can be found on amazon and the title is, "Chicken Soup for the Soul: Grieving and Recovery: 101 Inspirational and Comforting Stories about Surviving the Loss of a Loved One by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen, and Amy Newmark"
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Old Apr 19, 2015, 09:08 PM
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Thanks, maybe in time I will get that one. I have bought so many books on CPTSD that my mind just can't absorb anymore. Some posts that are too long can overwhelm me. My T has told me to stop reading and investigating CPTSD because it was blocking my progress. And yet she quotes on her site "knowledge is power" I feel like I should be doing something to help my healing, just don't know what that would be.
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Old May 06, 2015, 02:56 PM
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I did try EMDR soon after Dad's incident, but it was too soon for me to really focus on anything. Does that sound odd to get counselling too soon after something like that? I think it did help, it was through EAP, and I'm not sure how much longer I will have my job an be able to use that. Thanks everyone for your input.
I don't think going to a therapist is ever "too soon". In my case I wish I had started seeing a therapist much sooner than I did. I suffered emotionally way too long before seeking help.

My therapist has been talking to me about EMDR but she is not certified in it and I told her that I was very uncomfortable telling my "stories" to someone else. She offered to go to the sessions with me but there is still that trust issue. How long has it been since you've tried EMDR? What was it like?
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Old May 07, 2015, 07:38 PM
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It's been about 7 mos. since last did EMDR, actually I have done it by myself also. You think about a bad memory and stimulate the right and left side of the brain by ...I pat the top of my thighs while sitting. right , left, right , left and I do that until I want to quit. Does it help? Not sure.
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Old May 08, 2015, 07:12 PM
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It's been about 7 mos. since last did EMDR, actually I have done it by myself also. You think about a bad memory and stimulate the right and left side of the brain by ...I pat the top of my thighs while sitting. right , left, right , left and I do that until I want to quit. Does it help? Not sure.
Isn't EMDR all about the EYE movement? How does tapping your legs work? Just the stimulation itself? Does that help you with the bad memory or just distract you for a little while??
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Old May 28, 2015, 10:43 PM
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Had an appointment with the doctor today and we decided that I would not return to work until after being evaluated by the VA Psychiatrist, in July. I'm hoping that the level of care will greatly increase since the VA is so experienced in PTSD and maybe CPTSD.
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Old May 29, 2015, 12:59 AM
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I highly recommend EMDR. The VA should cover EMDR. EMDR has greatly helped me for many issues including severe multiple traumas. For those who want to know more about EMDR: http://www.emdria.org/?2
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Old Jun 19, 2015, 08:41 PM
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The new T does EMDR, we haven't talked about it yet, but she does list that as a skill she has. She seems optimistic that I may be feeling much better in a short time , I hope she is right.
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