[Loverofmysoul772]

My ex fiancé started sexually abusing me shortly after we got together. He enjoyed

Possible trigger:

sleeping my face and choking me until I almost passed out and would have a panic attack.

He said it turned him on as well as when he made me cry. He was emotionally abusive as well. I have now realized he is a narcissistic sociopath and he ruined my life, my children's lives, and my family's lives. I'm an empath and codependent and though I could fix everything, if I just did this for him, or changed myself, then he would love me. But he's not capable of changing his behavior. Well he then hurt my children. I reported his abuse on me and my kids, got a restraining order on him, but in retaliation he said I helped him anuse my kids! NOT true! So now I am fighting to get my children back, they were placed with my dad and stepmom and I may never see them again. After this happened I gave birth to his daughter, she's not even three months old, and I wasn't allowed to take her home from the hospital with me,Mao she is with my sister. I'm being robbed! CPS is lying to my children telling them mommy hurt them! I love my children, I have always taken care of them, my older two, I have cared for as a single parent their entire lives, my baby doesn't know me because i wasoallowed to take her home with me but I love her just as much. This is wrong. I am a victim, and im being revictimized by CPS and the justice system! I have c-PTSD on top of bipolar borderline personality anxiety and depression. I have flashbacks, panic attacks, irrational fears, cognition issues, health issues now, nightmares and at times suicidal. I fight every day for my children but with my mental health issues it is a battle every single day! I'm emotionally drained. Praying I make it through and get all my children back in my custody! Anyone else dealing with c-ptsd and/or CPS?

[Skeezyks]

Hello Loverofmysoul772: I'm sorry you are having so much difficulty. It's tragic when the entities that are supposed to help & protect us turn around & instead add to the tragedy. Hopefully you will be able to find a way to resolve this injustice before too much more harm is done.

[elevatedsoul]

so sorry...
the cps made everyone around us look bad when they took me away...
even though mom was trying to protect us they said she was neglectful ...

keep fighting... you can win... i did get to return after a couple years because they reformed everything and convinced the system that it was a safe environment for the kids to return home... but they made dad do a lot of things to prove it..

[Nammu]

Im so sorry that is happening. I went though horrific abuse from my ex husband but thank god he never hurt our daughter. You are not alone in in having c-PTSD in that circumstance I'm sure you're not the only person here dealing with CPS. Can you find an advocate to help you go though their system? One thing you need is to be selfish in getting help for the border line and c-PTSD so you can be ready to parent when they let you see your children.

(((hugs)))

[Loverofmysoul772]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Im so sorry that is happening. I went though horrific abuse from my ex husband but thank god he never hurt our daughter. You are not alone in in having c-PTSD in that circumstance I'm sure you're not the only person here dealing with CPS. Can you find an advocate to help you go though their system? One thing you need is to be selfish in getting help for the border line and c-PTSD so you can be ready to parent when they let you see your children.

I'm not sure who to ask as an advocate, like someone from an organization or something? I was seeing someone at a domestic violence place but she didn't know much about dealing with CPS, she was just there as a support.

[elevatedsoul]

found some information talking about what happening to you here..
Beware Child Protective Services: What Victims, Advocates, and Mandated Reporters Need to Know

maybe some useful information..
Handbook - Advocating for Women in the Criminal Justice System in Cases of Rape, Domestic Violence and Child Abuse.

not really sure what to do... stay strong though... keep fighting...

[Shaly78]

Fight the good fight my friend that is all you can do! I ran to into a cop that was kind of insensitive about what had just happened to me from my ex husband...I think you got to be prepared for that as it comes though, don't anticipate it from someone in the helping capacity...Pain can change a person, why would he push blame on you, then CPS agree and spew venom to your children...Something has to be the matter in the city you live in. I'm going to assume that this wasn't the first time, and those agencies are blaming you for staying in a situation like that where there are children, that is totally not FAIR! You must bring in his promises to change, his actually change of behavior and how his abuse continued out of the blue so that it seems as if you guys were compromising allowing for each others feelings...He seems like a person with anger issues...I don't see any problem with listening, seeing change, then it happens again shouldn't get you the blame...I'm not sure what to tell you to do except keep fighting...As least your children is with family....Lawyers might help you deal with CPS there is a lot of help for things like this in cities at least that has been my experience with talking with lawyers etc.