Sigh, without specifics I have been victim - emotional and otherwise - repeatedly throughout my life.

In the past, triggers have caused feelings of hurt, fear, and shame.

More recently however I've a new emotion about the memories. RESENTMENT. I suppose it is about resentment at the insult added to the injury. So to it is at resentment that people that ought to haven't acknowledged them either.

I don't like this feeling for it seems to have a bigger effect on me than fear right now; for it is impacting my behavior. I don't much like the person I have become.

[Open Eyes]

If you are struggling with PTSD, this is one of the symptoms that presents with PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist to help you work through the resentments?

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

If you are struggling with PTSD, this is one of the symptoms that presents with PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist to help you work through the resentments?

Yes, and the CBT was helpful. But, we challenged - rather successfully I think - the emotions of pain and guilt associated with the triggering of difficult memories. We dealt head on with the evidence I had been convinced of that somehow I was at at fault. Hence I believe the new feelings of having been insulted.

I did pull out my homework and did some work last night as well as did some writing about my feelings. I feel a bit better but the irritation still seems to be present

[Open Eyes]

One of the challenges with PTSD, is the "fight" response and that includes resentments.

Therapy is supposed to assist an individual to grieve whatever that individual feels was lost to them. Part of that grieving is "anger" which includes resentment.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

One of the challenges with PTSD, is the "fight" response and that includes resentments.

Therapy is supposed to assist an individual to grieve whatever that individual feels was lost to them. Part of that grieving is "anger" which includes resentment.

I'm right there with you

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[Lost_in_the_woods]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

Sigh, without specifics I have been victim - emotional and otherwise - repeatedly throughout my life.

In the past, triggers have caused feelings of hurt, fear, and shame.

More recently however I've a new emotion about the memories. RESENTMENT. I suppose it is about resentment at the insult added to the injury. So to it is at resentment that people that ought to haven't acknowledged them either.

I don't like this feeling for it seems to have a bigger effect on me than fear right now; for it is impacting my behavior. I don't much like the person I have become.

Yup. Resentmnt is a big one for me too. esp towards family members..and still i get retriggered by them cuz they refuse to acknowledge even stuff they exp too! My family has gone to great lengths to keep up the charade that "I" am the only actual problem....eveeything else gets swept deep under the rug...And Ppl Believe them!!

[leomama]

Yes I can not say anything about my reality because I am the family scapegoat. My mom manages to insult me every time she talks to me.

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[shezbut]

I am certainly most resentful towards my mom, which is a bit strange, I think.

She supported me throughout my teens ~ when I was acting out, to relieve some of that intense energy I'd been holding in for so long (due to several different abusers I'd had in my life). Yet, she refuses to accept my memories of SA with my older brother when I was around 5 y.o.

Possible trigger:

My parents were out one night, and after a bath, my sister came out into the hallway. He and I were on the floor, and I was giving him a bj. She screamed that we were disgusting. Obviously grossed out. Ever since, I have been filled with intense shame.

At that time, we told my parents about the event & admitted to kissing. (I don't recall this conversation, due to repression)

Possible trigger:

Thing is, we never said what kind of kisses I was giving him.

Therefore, my mom still does not believe me! B-atch For that, I hold onto deep resentment towards her. I hate my brother and other abusers as well....but not to the same extent. Strange, isn't it?

[leomama]

That's awful

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